hey havent been posting for quite a while



just want to release some of my thoughts out buzzing around in my mind right now..


In every endeavour, in every work, every opportunity, there is a temptation to slack off, not work hard. Draw your attention to something else. Procrastination.

So what keeps me working hard and going strong?

I got this drive for God..i got this drive for people.

I really have this desire to build on other's lives..develop their inner men, their spiritual strength. that's what i like to do.


on the other hand..

Things in this world beg me not to have a vision and purpose of living out God's dream..working hard for ministry.

Many issues in my life press me to give up trying to be a competent and successful person as a Child of God should be..

Many other desires to stop working, just slack off in class..play msn, get on girls..





But i understand that there's a fear in my life..not a bad fear- but a good fear of God. Fear of losing myself to an ungodly lifestyle. Fear of falling into temptation and being the opposite of what i've become. to have my desires right now and then, and lose everything i have in my future.


Call that a vaunted and twisted sense of spiritual justice and emoness, but that's how i feel, what i feel. what i need to do.







"Serving God is all about a continuous cycle of surrender, obedience and worship."



yeah i got my own personal life on one hand..and an endeavour to change for the better in another.

People will say to me..billy have faith, believe in yourself, God will make a way..YEAH. i know all that.

I know i'm supposed to serve God.

But the thing that troubles me is that i have doubts.



But i know that whatever it is, God is there for me. (:



ANYWAY.

SCHOOL is really cool! great to be back and kicking with the people. : P



anyone up for a class outing?