After long last i managed to find the time to write something. School has been allright, but i'm putting in effort now to really just get good grades. I'm planning to hit poly, and study mass communication, cause i don't think i'll like it in jc? Anyway, I'm just planning to be someone in a news agency or something like that. News is my passion, it's like, something i like to do. Just take in stuff from all over the world, wind it up into packs for people to read nicely and get paid for that. SCHOOL!

Monday was allright. School started fun, seeing all my friends again, sharing jokes and other retarded things. Gerald got a guitar, he's gonna start learning now, and i'm probrably going to teach him some more stuff. Oh, and speaking of guitar, I can play a few new songs now. During assembly, Madam Jane Choe came up to me and asked me to cut my hair. like, oh my god. I cut my hair on sunday and it's not enough? LOL! so anyway, I said it was fine, but she said my fringe and sides were like super long. Which i don't understand why. My hair was cut thin and trimmed what. Wl. Okay, so after assembly we had chapel, it was kinda boring but all of us were laughing at some teacher singing because she really sounds like shit. so like every time she went "Sing a thousand tongues!" we groaned really loudly, which was really damn funny to the chapel audience..(is it audience? i don't know what it is.) . so, after chapel was English, Was slack cause new timetable, no books and just started term. so everyone had to stand up to say one highlight and one catastrophe that happened during their holidays. So anton was like, I got rejected or something, LOL! David was his usual eat and sleep routine, and timothy choong was like. "My highlight was that the world cup started." Then he paused for a while..then he said, "the damn sad thing was that i have no cable" straight after that, the whole class started laughing damn loud that even the teacher was moved to giggle. anyway, after english was SS yeah? so mr tang was there with his usual serious self. quite uneventful. after ss was mother tongue. slack. then amaths, I decided to really, really really pay full friggin attention and i realised for the third time in my life i understand something in amaths. So after amths recess. had the usual stuff, hanged out with hansel, liang de, kenny and david, went to eat, then went over to Yue ming's table for fun. Then we were talking and playing awhile..then we realised we were late for class lah. so we rushed up like screaming monkeys and went to class. well lucky, mrs ravi was merciful and decided to spare our heads. (: After Lit was physics..I SLEPT LAH. LOL! but i tried to pay attention. oh, and we shoved a plant stalk into gareth's underwear. HAHA. what a day. After school, i ate, went to tution by bus, came back, work until i slept.


Tuesday. the bad day. So i went to mother tongue right? i did my projects there, then i was walking down to amaths class and mr sim was there. and he was like. why are you out of class early? (david and i don't take chi.) Why is your hair so long? And then i was like "OH NOOO..Four months turned into nothing..T.T" so, i got sent to the friggin barber. ok la, there was a whole crowd of long hair guys, they cut, i cut and i was almost crying when they cut my hair. CAN'T THEY SEE THAT IT'S FOUR MONTHS OF HARD WORK AND DECEPTION?! T.T FOUR MONTHSSS!!! TO BE LIKE PAUL TWOHILL!!! NOW I'M PAUL ONEHILL OR SOMETHING LIKE THAT! EVERY STRAND, STRAND THAT THEY CUT IS A THOUSAND NEEDLES STABBING INTO MY EYEEESSS!!!! EEEEEEHHHHHHHHHHHh!!!!!!!

lol. so anyway i didnt care. went recess, i skipped like so many lessons because of haircut. then i went to chem. NEW TEACHER! ahh. i miss julia lee. so sad. anyawy, there was ssh, but we skipped maths to go collect results slip. nothing eventful, exept that i tripped like two times in two miniutes which was really like...damn unlucky. went tution again, came home, did project and lit work, plus maths and english. then i took a break, and then slept accidentally.


Today i woke up late. Went to school, went mother tongue for 20 miniutes cause of long assembly. went lit, celebrated because ravi didnt come today. Well there was work lah. but after that we went crazy and tried to stick gum to roy's bald head and see what would happen. but his hair is damn cool lah. because of a burning and glue accident, he has two bald patches on his head. he shaved right? then he has like one tail down there. damn cool right? (: after that fun session of lit, we went ss. again, uneventful. recess today was damn funny..christian was like making fun of kenneth.."you see lah, his father hepititis, his mther aids, he got cancer, heart problem dunno what problem.." and he was saying it in some ah beng way. which was somehow damn funny because i started laughing with the whole table was well. after recess, went amaths, physics and house meeting. then came home, had science tution, went to exersise, and came back. mugged until now. not so bad lah, but wah lao, i'm damn tired nowadays.



Intresting news:
Timothy chew got screwed for having a video of him and byron fighting on youtube.
Teck Chai turned nice.
I can play 20 songs. i think.
I just realised i miss wanjing alot.
This publications issue is actually the first 12 page issue full of crap. and retarded jokes.

Goals:
Understand amaths
Learn how to play Sing, Last train, and saint patrick's day.

ok. stop posting. fed up. need to sleep. bye.

tag me ah. I'll be slicing up the people who dont.


lol jk.

1. When you looked at yourself in the mirror today, what was the first thing you thought?
My hair is messy. ( haha. same zhiwei. lol.)
2. When is the next time you will have sex?
HOW THE HELL SHOULD I KNW. ASK GOD. *dies from the question*
3. What's a word that rhymes with "DOOR"?
Soar! I rhyme alot!
4. Favorite planet?
earth LA. then what? Uranus ah?
5. Who is the 3rd person on your missed call list on your mobile?
Dad!
6. What is your favorite ring on your phone?
Bigger Than my body by John Mayer
7. What shirt are you wearing?
Purple (SEE GERALD? PURPLE IS NOT GAY! I AM NOT GAY, THEREFORE I AM! LOL! random..o.o)
8. Do you "label" yourself?
Not at all
9. Name the brand of shoes you're currently wearing?
I'm not wearing shoes HAHA.
10. Bright or dark room?
Meduim lit.
11. What do you think about the person who took this survey?
Zhiwei? She's lovably cute and very, very funny!
12. take a break, have a kit-kat!
I'm having a break, and had a kit kat last time. i want one now!
13. What were you doing at midnight last night?
Guitar, then sleep
14. What did your last text message you received on your mobile say?
It's from sweet little jing jing and it says "Hello!"
15. Where is your letter box?
Downstairs outside my wall house
16. What's a word that you say a lot?
Wah Lao Eh, Hey Bro, Shit, Holy shit, Holy oh my shit (my own invention), Sianzapeeeee!.
17. Who told you he/she loved you last?
Ying Bin! HAHA. <33333
18. Last furry thing you touched?
My chair.
19. How many drugs have you done in the last three days?
I am a honest clean man....-withdrawal symptoms- HAHA LOL JK.
21. Favorite age you have been so far?
I like all i've been
22. Your worst enemy?
Timothy Chew Hao En. Actually no lah. i like to push him around. (:
23. What is your current desktop picture?
2advanced.com v5. attractor
24. What was the last thing you said to someone?
Wah lao, To my brother.
25. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to fly, which would you do?
FLY!! then i'll rob the banks.HAHA
26. Do you like someone?
mm..yea..Like as in love..yea..but like as in friend like..i like everyone.
27. Are you dating them?
confidental..wink wink
28. If the last person you spoke to was getting shot at, would you jump in front of the bullet for them?
Of course lah. Yuepeng mah. My brudder.
29. If you could punch one person in the face who's in your life right now, who would it be?
hm. no la. dnt want. NONVIOLENCE ROCKS! YAY FOR BUDDHA! LOL JK
30. Who're the six lucky people who will be doing this next?
Everyone who wanna do this thing do it man

WAH LAO EH!

In the process of getting demonically depressed, i just realised, WHY SHOULD I BE DEPRESSED ANYWAY?!?!?!?

This is a load of bullshit, some dissillusionized CRAP!

Why should i feel upset anyway?!?!?!?!?

Pissed, pissed and more pissed. Yeah, that's right. you HAPPY? I bet you are. I can't be bothered anymore. I don't think, anyone thinks i'm serious, like i'm just some ACTION FREAK YEAH? Driven mad by his own retarded, Blinded thoughts of LOVELESS, God-Forsaken ME. And. I FRIGGIN, GUESS finally, NO ONE CARES. My life, is finally falling apart. My friends, i guess they are forsaking me, Everything i do, is just sadness and causes unhappiness. I am mad. I think i'm harming my own friends. I am a sick paraiah. I'm just a dead man walking. I am, satan. Yeah..I'm satan. I'm a pure devil. What do i do? nothing but harm harm harm..Make trouble, cause people to be upset. Even my dad tells me i'm satan. I'm a freak. I'm not a human being. I'm the one who will fufill the prophecy of revelations..I'm just going to kill everyone, EVEN MY OWN FAMILY. I have, NO WORTH, I am, Just a chaotic man. No, not man. devil.

AHHH. okay. i shouldnt have posted that.

anyway, a big thank you to ms wan jing jing and chloe chloe and siyin and liying and eleanor for making me feel. better. haha. I'm pretty much okay now, just very, pissed at alot of people. but i'm trying to be better. (: well it's one in the morning..and..OH MY GOD THERE"S BLOOD ON MY LEG!

-15 mins later-

ahh..okay..scary..it was like..*pak, pak, pak* and i was wondering what was that...and it was blood..from my leg..eeek..i didn't know..so blur..i was scratching. ok. so anyway. i feel like sleeping now.


SCGS = scary taoist girls =.=
Saint nicks = ooh baby..*drools over the prettiness*

RANDOM! WWWW!

hahaha. ._.

AHHH. okay. i shouldnt have posted that.

anyway, a big thank you to ms wan jing jing and chloe chloe and siyin and liying and eleanor for making me feel. better. haha. I'm pretty much okay now, just very, pissed at alot of people. but i'm trying to be better. (: well it's one in the morning..and..OH MY GOD THERE"S BLOOD ON MY LEG!

-15 mins later-

ahh..okay..scary..it was like..*pak, pak, pak* and i was wondering what was that...and it was blood..from my leg..eeek..i didn't know..so blur..i was scratching. ok. so anyway. i feel like sleeping now.


SCGS = scary taoist girls =.=
Saint nicks = ooh baby..*drools over the prettiness*

RANDOM! WWWW!

hahaha. ._.

I don't feel like continuing blogging anymore. BUT SEE FIRST. why? NO POINT. no one bothers to read like the whoe of the world doesnt give a shit about me. Yeah, that's right. the people in my screwed up life, don't give a shit. no wait. okay. there are people who give a shit, but they are like. 7 of them? LIKE?! Don't care about me done with it lah bastards and bitches


I "LOVE" YOU PEOPLE ALOT! (as if) *spits in disgust* *sarcastic look*



no wait. that's to shitty.




FUCK YOU ALL.




THat's better.


yeah right after this you guys are going to call me attention seeking bastard pfftt

You know something? I feel so damn unimportant. Suddenly i just realised no one really gives a damn whether i'm there or nt. No one friggin bothers, it's like i make no difference.









What the hell is so funny about private parts.








Yay jiaying. sry i didnt reply.







wait. i cnt change the subject. it's like droning around my head. I just feel friggin unimportant. like some bystander. why can't i be more recognised? hai. can't do that. that's just ego. what to do lah. I'm just like..so blur and unhappy.






NO ONE CARES, DO THEY? IF THERE ARE PEOPLE WHO CARE IT WOULD BE MY SCHOOL FRIENDS, ZHIWEI, CHLOE AND WANJING.

Discussing about plain, downright dirty subjects
Is far beyond polite or mature.
Just so sickening.
Maturity of a twelve year old pornography addict.
What a way to start my day.

it's four am in the morning. and guess what. I found out how to play bigger than my body. after so many days of trying. I also figured out with the help of my brother the next part of no such thing and i nearly completed why georgia. after i finish these three, i'll go on to open the eyes of my heart lord.

Cheers guys.

and tag.

Plesase.

Show me that you guys love me! ^^

From Ruth.

fOUR names you go by:
a) Bill (everyone calls me)
b) Billy (my proper name)
c) Brother (Close friends call me that)
d) Eh (everyone else aliases me)

2) fOUR screen names you've had:
a) Bill. -doing something-
b) Jazzman-Bill
c) Bill-Jazz
d) SpoonBill.

3) fOUR PHYSICAL things you don't like about yourself:
a) Can't run long distances
b) always naturally looks tired
c) Major headaches
d) Right arm muscle pains. (oh god, i hate this, It seizes me suddenly when i'm typing or something.)

4) fOUR parts of your heritage:
a) depends on how you define heritage.
b) "
c) "
d) "

5)fOUR things that scare you:
a) Insects
b) Dismembered body parts
c) No guitar/computer ( I will DIE!)
d) Never met all my friends. (yeah. See? I really appreciate all of you.)

6) fOUR of your everyday essentials:
a) sleep.
b) stare.
c) breathe.
d) walk.

7) fOUR things that you are wearing now:
a) shirt
b) shorts
c) specs
d) choker

8) fOUR of your favourite bands or musical artistes:
a) JOHN MAYER! YEA YEA YEA!
b) Incubus (:
c) Freddie Mercury/Queen (Oh yeah, he's dead but his music lives on)
d) Santana!

9) fOUR of your favourite songs:
a) Summer Romance/AntiGravity love song by incubus
b) Why Georgia by John Mayer! woohoo!
c) Wheel By John Mayer
d) Battlestar Scratchila By Incubus

10) fOUR things you want in a relationship:
a) Awareness
b) Understanding
c) Respect
d) Love.

11) tHREE truths and oNE lie (In no particular order, figure them out yourself. IF YOU ARE CLEVER ENOUGH.) :
a) I love guitar
b) I think some of my friends i know, right here, right now, are really, very hot. or beautiful. (:
c) I love durians
d) My fringe is up to my nose

12) fOUR things you wanna do badly right now:
a) Play guitar.
b) Talk to siyin. ( Don't know why. really. suddenly want to talk.)
c) Go out now and party
d) Get a date..(:

13) fOUR careers you're considering / have considered:
a) Secondary School Teacher/Counsellor.
b) University / Jc Lecturer.
c) Guitarist
d) slacker (woohoo.)

14) fOUR places you wanna go on vacation:
a) Hong Kong, China (yay!~)
b) Shanghai, China.
c) New York/Boston, USA
d) Mexico

15) fOUR names you like (3 english + 1 chinese):
a) Sarah
b) Amadeus
c) Ruth
d) ZhengHui (HAHA!)

16) fOUR things you wanna do / see before you die:
a) Understand Buddhisim Completely.
b) Have a beautiful relationship.
c) Grow a ponytail
d) have a fruitful relationship. hahas.

17) fOUR things that indicate that you're stereotypically a boy:
a) I am Straight to the point.
b) I lazy
c) I Classify girls into Beautiful, sexy, hot, and sinfully cute. (I'm going to do a quiz and pass it around the next time.
d) I love battles.

18) fOUR things that indicate you're stereotypically a girl:
a) I love shopping. really.
b) I can talk to many, many girls and still be comfortable.
c) I love guy bands/guy artists (SOMETIMES.) eg, John mayer! (nt gay. But really like..obsessed.)
d) I love hugs and kisses.

19) fOUR celeb crushes:
a) erh.
b) uh.
c) emm.
d) JOHN MAYER!.

20) fOUR people that i would like to see take this quiz:
a) Siyin.
b) Wanjing.
c) Chloe Chloe XD.
d) anyone who wants to do it.

Of sickness, gayness and terrible mishaps.

Right. These few days have been boring. Yes. nothing to post. really. nothing to post. i shall do a quiz..



1. Grab the book nearest to you, turn to page 18 and find line four:

The sheet music from John Mayer's room for squares.

" Chords: G, Dadd4, G, Dadd4, G, Dadd4,

Lyrics: Fill__the spa - ces with Wooden plac - es to Make- it Feel like___ home ..."

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2.Stretch your left arm out as far as you can :
Ouch i did that and i knocked the friggin wall
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3.What is the last thing you watched on Tv?
World cup
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4.Without looking, guess what time is it:
9:34 pm
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5.Now look at the clock, what is the actual time:
9.31 pm. argh shit so close
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6.With the exception of the computer, what can you hear:
Tv, humming of speakers, my mum typing, the sound of "Bigger than my body" coming from next door.
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7.When did you last step outdoor? what were you doing:
erh, this morning, went to esplanade
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8.Before you started this survey, what did you look at:
Erm...as many things as my eye can see? the questions the quiz set me?blogs?
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9.What are you wearing:
tshirt and pants
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10.Did you dream last night:
YES. I was at school, and everyone i saw and met was like, So Billy! When are you gonna cut your hair?
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11.When did you last laugh:
1 min ago at my dad
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12.What is on the walls of the room you are in:
Posters.
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13. Seen anything weird lately:
My brother ( he is provoking me in ways unknown to man)
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14.What do you think of this quiz:
Gives me something to post
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15.What is the last film you saw:
R.V. OH MY GOD IT WAS SO STUPID BT FUNNY
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16.If you became a multi-millionaire overnight, what would you buy:
pure gold jewelry for all my friends. SEEE? I AM SO NICE!
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17.Tell me something about you that i don't know:
I have never fallen into deep love before.
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18.If you could change one thing about the world, regardless of guilt or politics, what would you change:
All the fighting to stop.
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19.Do you really like to dance:
No.
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20.George W .Bush:
Monkey president of the U.nited S.uck A.sses

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21.Imagine your first child is a girl, what would you call her:
Zhenghui. HAHA!
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22.Imagine your first child is a boy, what would you call him:
Brandon.
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23.Have you ever considered living abroad:
YES. China, HK, America.
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24.What do you want God to say to you when you reach the pearly gates:
I am John Mayer....and your FATHER! MUAHAHA! LOL! i dunno.
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25.4 people who must do this in their blog:
-Anyone who wants to do it.

In the current age of crazyness, I don't care. what a starting for a post.

Today i went to watch R.V with Gerald and Mark. Horrible show. loL! but damn funny lah. Went around J8..then went to Plaza sing to help gerald buy stuff..got him slippers. Went to queenstown and got:

Ring, and necklace for xinan.
Choker and bracelet for myself
and a nice nice fantastic experience of the best shopping area on earth. it's so cheap.
hee.
okay.
haha.
so bored.

Today died.



RANDOM!

WAH LAO I WANT TO GO OUTTT!!! I WANT I WANT I WANT TO GO OUT! WHO IS FREEEEEE????????????????? I WANT TO GO OUT LA WAH LAO

Life is simple. But people are complicated.
-Tan Siok Bin, My Mother.

I'm really unhappy now. Feeling really faded and sick. Nowadays, I'm trying NOT to get crushes. It's like impossible to love. I'm cold. Why? Maybe i've convinced myself no one, NO ONE, knows what love is. or that they can love. Well, this is my essay, and this is how i feel.





"Everything that has a beginning has an end."
- The oracle, From the matrix.

After everything there's an end and that ending really sucks. Why bother to be in love anyway? That's why some people are over love and maybe that's why i'll never get a girlfriend. Well. I've been thinking, Love is sometimes like a drug? When you are in love it's heaven. When you're away you wanna cry. When you part with it you literally throw your life away. After every emotion of happiness, love, and all? It goes down the drain! Every "Our relationship will last forever..I lurve you so much..I'll never leave you.." ends with "You Bitch/Bastard, you ruined my life." even it's it's a nice breakup, some people just can't get over love. and after love? what happens? You get depressed. Drink even. Take your pillow, shove your head in and scream like a cow. Turn on the shower and just think. Punch your fists against the wall and hope for the better. And what happens? You get over it, and you feel sober. get ready to live life. get ready for the worst. Pessemisim sets in eventually and what do you become? A emotionless cold person. even when one gets over it? what does he or she get again? another relationship, another history, another black mark or a cut embedded in the mind. Suffering over, and over again. And everything in the end? has an end. No such thing as " I love you forever."

"Well, My philosophy. Life sucks. Live with it man. Cheer up. (: "
- Ho Song Yang, Friend and Brother in school.






"People are full of egos..They shit all over the place and expect people to clean it up and like cleaning it..they only know how to make people feel negative..Now you understand why hitler killed all the jews.."
-Tay Yew Chye, My Father.

A friend of mine had a love life. Eventually, love blossomed into a huge part of his life, and he asked others to help him, guide him. I was reluctant, but being a friend, i decided to give help. He asked me for favours, i gave. However. He Boasted and Boasted like hell. Everyone knows about their relationship. He made me like, So angry because like somehow being in love with another friend of mine changed me. Then i thought, Who on earth deserves him? What does he do to every relationship? "Dear sweet love, I'll take you home.." and then? he jokes. he plays. he makes fun. and the feelings of others get hurt. After ego? even people like I get jealous after tolerating. He pricks the depths of my emotional self, and others too. Love breeds ego. and Ego? Is hell. A very good friend of mine, who gave me help in understanding love, said" Yes. Really. And it's like he gets the rights over u and he starts boasting to everyone that you are his girlfriend. This tt feeling is really very good." Well, I understand what she says, but in fact. People like me who try their best to tolerate, stick with nonviolence and tolerance, are turned into crazy beasts. How come such a freak like him can get a girlfriend like that anyway? I'm just a philosophical guy in the world who just wants to live, I'm two years older, know lots of eligible Girls, and why does he get a girlfriend, and i don't? Pride Makes me jealous. I tolerated this three times.

Love = Sweet things, happy and ego.
Ego = boastful
Boastful = Alot of people don't like
Alot of people don't like = Irritation
Irritation = no good
No good = i don't like.





" I will be there for him just as strong as he, will be there for me When I give myself then it has got to be, an equal thing.."
-Tata young, From the song "Cinderella."

Well when things go down i need to pick up the pieces myself..I always learn things the hard way, and literally..I don't think most people care about my life. When i get a girlfriend i will have to help HER pick up the pieces of broken things. help HER do things for her. put her to sleep when she's tired. And once i've done everything i gotta pick myself up too.sometimes love would be "we be there for each other" because most of the time..It's the guy who does stuff..and when it's the other way around she's just "don't worrie okie? <3" They don't really seem to care, and only care about themselves and the diamond rings they get! And the love love? Yes, it's a happy feeling, but well? The boys feel the same, but at what cost? in the end, at the time of the breakup? they will see all these things LOST, and then in the end they go with the presents, Scot free.





"Love makes us act like we are fools..Throw our lives away, for one happy day.."
-Satine, From the moulin rouge.

The aim of love is to get married. To feel that warm feeling inside. What does marraige hold for us? none of us know. I'd like to quote a friend, who gave me an incredible insight, and who woke up to the reality of suffering.
"its stupid to get married. FINE whatever thats a 'childish' thought to some, i think its not. well when i was p5 or something my friends were accepting the fact they need some, love in theirlivesurghcome to think of its sick. ooh, i have a bf! I'm SO cool!VERY retardedwah, Tt girl got bf, she must be chio. Yeah right i especialy hate people who get married and then. divorce, leave the family. its cruel. and they never think about the kids.stupid adults . all they care about is that SLUT. and theyre moneymoney money moneyOOOH LOOK im so rich come on~ \.and then stupid women will FLOCK to that old guy for his money, they ALWAYS think theyre right whatever they do they THINK its right yeah. divorce and hurting the kids are okay.Well..If things happen..we must try ourselves not to make ourselves like that.."The greatest thing you'll ever learn, Is to love, and be loved in return.." I'll never get married..kill me if i go back on this promise.."





" The finality of life, is death."
-Siddharta Gautama, The buddha.

Love is a paradox. It causes happpiness but in the end it all comes down to suffering because there is an end to a relationship. It is so wonderful, You see it everywhere, on blogs, songs, written on people's faces, and yet you think of it it's a drug like heroin, so i pretty much am tempted to take it. Well..I don't know if i should love. I'm extremely emotional..over friendship breaks i just wanna point a gun (yes, a bb gun, not kidding) and shoot myslef..and end it. I don't know how to handle a girlfriend. and after everything I've done for her, helped her, died for her, when we break up? I'll be on top of a building just hanging with my legs there. just waiting.

ohmygosh. Today i was at tution right? Okie. I saw this girl who looks like yingbin. But she's like japanese? lol! I just realised we take the same bus to tution. and today i found out that by closer inspection, she is really, really very beautiful. hehh. i was sitting beside her the whole bus ride. didn't dare to say hi. Must try my best to make friends with her next time~~ since we're going to come on the same days. hehh..-blushes- okay! I'm going bowling again. so post later.


These are the people i can't tag:
Siyin
Jiaying
Diondra
Eleanor
Dawn


So take a look at your tagboards yeah? might be something wrong. anyway. please don't kill me. I can't tag.

Hello People. New updates:

Customized profile box
New song (James Taylor's "Our Town")
Front page edit
Edited main Background.
and finally, after 3 weeks i fixed my links.


Yes. Yesterday i went bowling with Mark, Gerald and Joshua. It was quite an average game, the first few attempts scored us with a disgustingly low score. Okay, so whatever, it was a practice run. The third game, I Managed to get a turkey and a score of 125. Stupified the rest of my friends, beat them down from that game onwards. Well, Nothing much happened. Oh yeah. I saw Joanne there too, But i was kinda like. Too shy to say hi. I think she forgot me -.-' On the fifth game, we suddenly realised like all the balls were gone, and to our fascination we discovered that the balls were stuck at the end. it was like, Gerald bowled his turn to get a ball out of the gutter, but when the shutter came up? There was a whole line of bowling balls down there, mulitcoloured, in a nice straight line. post later. need to go.



Cheer up vanessa (:

Darn. the posts don't work. anyways, so like now this whole damn thing doesnt work. argh. atf. nvm. changed song to John Mayer (ohmygodilovehim) 's Only heart.

Yo. long time no postie. okay, So like I'll start a few weeks before. Well, i met a nice girl called charis through siyin. She seems allright, really polite, nice to talk to and understanding. mm..what else..I can't remember the rest of the week. I'll start with things i remember.a couple weeks ago i went to swim with my brother..it was okay..after that went out with ronald to rosyth. After hanging out..i went to gerald's house to watch hellboy and play sth on my guitar. skip skip skip...


Okay. I went gerald's house AGAIN for his bday barbecue. Well, Mark, Pierre, Daryl, Lionel, Yu Ming and Melvin attended..we started by watching south park la..it was damn damn stupid but funneh. After south park..I went to design my duct tape wallet that gerald's making for me. I drew a kinda reddish but spectacular-looking eagle design from the design on my ring. After doing all that stuff..the guys came in one by one, starting with Daryl and Lionel, then Joshua. Actually we went out to pick up joshua. When we came back like, Pierre and the others came alr..Then finally yu ming. so when mark came right? He was like very, very sweaty and he STANK the whole darn room out...So gerald took a bar of soap and pasted it to the air conditioner...LOL!

Okay, what else. Oh yea. after that we went down to have like fun with gerald's wooden swords and his bb guns..it was really, really very funny. I was playing with joshua la, then suddenly like pierre went retarded and shot melvin in the butt. Melvin went insane immediately and took a rubber band gun and chased pierre around the whole estate, leaving us in a state of incurable laughter. After that crazy episode, we went for dinner. Gerald's dad cooked some pasta and we barbecued some meat and corn..it was great until the Alcoholic punch arrived. at first i didnt know it was alcohol, so i drank lots of it anyway because the meat made me damn thirsty. So after i drank alot right? i was still drinking and then gerald was like, oh, did you know that was alcoholic punch?


I spent the next few hours drunk on his bed, while the others were playing Generals on the com. Weird day.


Wellies, other than that i remember that there was an amazing concert by the Moon Quintet, a jazz band. ROCKED MY ASS OFF. The solos were amazing, the pianist? super freaking fast. Other than concerts..nothing much..Today was supposed to go out with Wanjing But wasted la. cannot. 4 people cannot go.


Yesterday, i was watching moulin rouge, and i came across this very, very deep quote.


" The Greatest thing, you'll ever learn, Is to love and be loved in return."
-Christan, from the moulin rouge.

okie. enough posting. oh yeah. Congrats to jiaying for achieving her split. And many thanks to gerald for making my duct tape wallet.

Bold(red) the statements that are true to you.
Italise(blue) the statements that you wish are true.
Leave the fibs alone.
Then stab 10 people to do the same test.

I miss somebody right now.
I dont watch TV these days.
I wear glasses or contact lenses.
I love to play video games.
I've tried marijuana. (what the hell)
I have been in a threesome. (what the hell x 2)
I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy.
I curse sometimes. (all the time (: )
I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I'm totally smart. ( oaky, not really, just morally smart. i think.)
I've broken someone's bones.
I'm paranoid sometimes.
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free. ( i hate my pimples. AND I WANT LONG HAIR.)
I need money right now.
I love sushi.
I talk really, really fast.
I have long hair.
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling. (1 bro 1 sis)
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn't survive without Caller I.D.
I like the way i look.
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings.
I have a hidden talent.
I'm always hyper no matter how much sugar i have.
I have a lot of friends.
I am currently single.
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone.
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop.
Enjoy window shopping.
I would rather shop then eat.
I don't hate anyone.
I'm a pretty good dancer.
I'm completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone.
I believe in God.
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months.
I've rejected someone before.
I have no idea what i want to do for the rest of my life.
I want to have children in the future.
I have changed a diaper before.
I've called the cops on a friend before.
I'm not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn.
I have been with someone at least 10 years older or younger.
I am shy around the opposite sex. sometimes..hehh..I blush..ALOT..
I have tried alcohol before.
I have made a move on a friend's significant other or crush in the past.
I own the South Park movie.
I would die for my best friends. (Wan jing XD)
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it.
I am happy at this moment!
I'm obsessed with guys.
I love hugs.
I study for tests most of the time.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I've ever met.
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever i can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles.
I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
Plan on achieving a major goal/dream.
I'm proficient in a musical instrument.
I worked at McDonald's restaurant.
I hate office jobs.
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules.
I went college out of state.
I like sausages.
I am a chocoholic.
I love kisses.
I fall for the worst people.
I adore bright colours.
I can't live without black eyeliner.
I don't know why the hell i just did this stupid thing. (LOL!)
I usually like covers better than originals.
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can't whistle. (through my teeth)
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snakes slither.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I've ever written in.
I can't stick to a diet.
I talk in my sleep.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions.
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
I have jazz in my blood. ( I LOVE JAZZ, JAZZ IS MY LIFE, JAZZ = SEXAEY! =D)
I wear a toe ring.
I have a tattoo.
I can't stand at LEAST one person that i work with.
I am a caffeine junkie.
I cosplay or know what cosplaying is.
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsesical the better.
I'm an artist.
I only clean my room when necessary.
I like a person of the same sex. - MATES!! ((:
I love being happy.
I am an adrenaline junkie.

hehs. okay. here is the 10 ppl i stab!!:
-Zhiwei. (muahahah)
-Ruth
-Benjammin
-Calvin
-Siyin
-Peck Eng
-Lisa
-Diondra
-YP
-FT

On 6/6/6, One of the most Fantastic musicians of the world, Whom i so happily share my name with, passed away. His name, was Billy Preston. You should look him up and get a sense of just how much the man contributed to the music world. One of my favorite songs ever is a tune he wrote called "That's The Way God Planned It", and I think it means more today than ever. Try and grab George Harrison's Concert for Bangledesh CD/DVD, even if you skip all the amazing music and listen only to Billy's divine rendition.


As John Mayer said, "I wanted to share a memory I had of Billy Preston with you.

I had the honor of playing with Billy Preston on an Eric Clapton/JJ Cale recording session last Summer. I was seated behind him while he pumped away on his B3 organ, and it was such a blast to be able to hear his playing that close up.It's those moments when I wonder what I did in my life and career to deserve playing my guitar in a situation so thrilling. He was playing his ass off all day.


At one point during one of the tunes, I hear this unbelievable organ playing - real headturning stuff. I look up from my guitar to see that Billy Preston is playing the keys with only his right hand, moving it back and forth from the organ to an orange he was peeling. That, folks, is what you call a natural musician."




You will be missed sir. We honor you. Go in peace.

right. 12 in the morn.


HAPPY BRITHDAY XINAN!

Now right. there's some spammer in charis's blog? I jsut wanna let that person know.


My pasa ah? Get a life, sick freako.

I am 84 % emo/Goth


[x] You hate the world.
[x] You hate society.
[x] You think vampires are cool.
[x] You write poetry.
[x] You have black hair/dyed your hair black once.
[x] You wear/have worn black eyeliner.
[x] You write poetry that's not for school.
[ ] You are freakishly obsessed with darkness.
[x] You think love is a waste of time.
[x] You've given up on the world.

Total => 9


[ ] You've shopped at Hot Topic.
[ ] You've spent over $100 at Hot Topic.
[x]You wear more bracelets than a Russian...
[x]You own a dog collar, that's not for your dog
[ ] You're extremely pale.
[x] You are a member of a poetry site.
[ ] Your screen name has been an oxymoron.
[x] you are an aethiest or agnostic
[x] You don't believe in god.
[x] Your screen name has/had X's in it.

Total => 6


[x] You have been referred to as scary.
[x] You have been referred to as demented.
[x] You have been referred to as weird.
[x] You have been known to hate teachers.
[x] You have been known to cause trouble.
[x] Your hair has been dyed a color that was not
natural.
[x] You have/or had at least one photoshopped
picture on myspace.
[x] You think pictures look better in greyscale or
sepia tone.
[x] You have been referred to as evil.
[x] You are scared of yourself sometimes.

Total =>10

[x] Suicide has crossed your mind
[x] you have screamed before -
[x] You use big words that no one has ever heard
before on occasion.
[x] you've seen The Exorcist.
[x] You liked The Exorcist.
[x] You've seen Saw.
[x] You liked Saw.
[x] You've done voodoo.
[] You hate sports.
[x] You dress up as the most morbid thing
posssible on Halloween.

Total => 9


[ ] Halloween is one of your favorite holidays.
[x] You have a strange liking for fire.
[ ] You have only a couple of actual friends.
[x] You're not afraid of spiders.
[x] You have had a conversation about how you
want to die.
[x] You've painted your nails black
[x] One or more of your myspace pics has/had
writing on them.
[x] You have had the word "...." in your display
name.
[x] You love art.
[x] You like art with negative meanings

Total =>8

Now add up your total and multiply by two.
Post with your score saying I am *score* % emo/Goth

I want these people to do this:

1.Zhiwei
2.Charmaine
3.Wanjing
4.Lisa
5.Siyin
6.JiaYing
7.vanessa.
8.Yp
9.Ft
10.everyone who wants to do it

Random thoughts again. Better read it.



-Some things are meant to be changed, some things are not, but some idiots in the end must make things messed up and switch it around.




-Tomorrow Is 6th of June, Two thousand and six. In short, 6/6/6.




-Some people just piss others off by telling them what to do. Why can't people work together than tell them what to do?




-I think people would be pissed of if someone tell them not to take this choice because of pure biasedness. take politics. What's the point of listening to what others say? It's your life, and you listen to your Heart, and use your brain to process and decide for yourself. Basically, no one tells you what to do, and this being violated by people telling others to do certian things based on baisedness, Sucks to the very core.

Follow up the the above, I would think the everyday person would just stand up, Call the latter a motherfucker, point the middle finger, and continue with their daily life.



I think people should relax sometimes. In my school newspaper, we do crazy things Like report on fake news in a joke page, featuring things like New Head prefect, Mr See Mah Poo, and the new Great wall of Chena. Comparing it to things like Serious stuff, i think the crazy stuff is better. A little fun makes the day much better.



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Now. Today i went for a high tea at the Scotts plaza hotel, Cafe Vienna. It was pretty much allright, The entire Publications Team Came along with two Ex-Members. Food was allright. After eating, I went with Michael, Daniel, YiHang, and sudhir to orchard road. we walked around pretty much alot, and went to cinelesiure. we went to go see the movie list, but in the end went to play lan. It was really very fun in the end. -end here. I don't feel like posting.-


----------------------------Messages------------------------------------

Jiaying. Enjoy your Stuff i bought for you. =)

Siyin: What's the world coming to? What are YOU coming to?. I mean. I can't do what?

Yingbin: Pls tell me when you free okie granddaughter? I wanna go bowling.

Song: what was that weird confrence on msn about anyway?

Anton: thanks for the songs.

Jing Ting: yes, jj is cute hahahahaa!

Anqi: choose the first skin!

Eleanor: yes, i liked your posts and converstations. You inspired me to do things, like organise my blog and be a serious blogger. You're a really Sociable, smart, Straight to the point fun Girl, And i love that.=)

Ronald: Next time you want to discuss buisness with me, BE SERIOUS. shithead.

Chloe: Try Msn Web Messenger. Go msn, search for it. =)

Random Thoughts.

What the fuck is wrong with people, who just won't forgive people for saying sorry to act as if they are SOOO SUPERIOR?!

Anyway. it's just those bastards and bitches that cause alot of shit, that make people like me kinda angry and jealous because it's like, Oh, love is SOOO cool! if you're in love, you rock!

Why do some people care more about others while some people deserve to be comforted and cared for in times of trouble?

If humans are perfect, the world should be perfect to.

Democracy is decided by the government. Defenition of democracy = The people, big or small, young and old, no matter how freaky, get to have a say.

If the government takes only 1 % of your daily income, they take millions of percent from people. and that's a million bucks or so. what do they do with the money? Straight into the pocket.

Some people deserve WAY more than they are in.

Relationships are stupid sometimes. People think love can last forever? but that's bullshit. In the end, the reality is that you're going to get dumped like a freak asshole, or by a freak asshole.

15 BASIC LIFE QUESTIONS FROM SIYIN.

1. are you a girl or boy?
guy.

2. have you ever swear at a teacher in front of him/her?
Yes, but they didn't care.

3. did a close friend ever call you a bitch?
Yes, when i hit him in the neck with a wooden pole X)

4. have you have/had a Girlfriend?
Nope.

5. did you ever kissed someone?
Gah. no. <=(

6. have you ever saw your friend naked before?
God no way

7. have you ever liked a person the same gender as you before?
As friends.

8. did you ever not bathe for more then 2 days?
When i was camping outdoors.

9. did you ever cost a person to hate you for life?
no way HAHA!

10. did you have any pets?
A budgie i call Yellow Submarine.

11. wad can you do the whole of ur life without getting sick of it?
Make blogskins / play guitar / Watch John Mayer / Do Quizzes!

12. have you ever not use the com for more than 10 days?
Yeah. i'm not an addict.

13. have you ever met someone face to face through the internet?
SIYIN. =)

14. have you ever liked someone much older than you?
6 years older HAHA!

15. who do you tink shld do this quiz?
EVERY SINGLE PERSON

Random sth.


Angry Yingbin with a big evil looking stick = ouch ouch ouch
Cute little jing ting with vampire fangs = funny fantastic deaths
Bill with a golf stick = heads for everyone
Gerald with a throwing star = supreme pwnage.
Chew with a sword = self decapitation
Song with an xbox = pwnage
Ezra with a loudspeaker = Death by noise
Kenneth with a cat = kennycat?!
Gareth with a badminton racquet = something bad with fats
Anton and Charlene =........muahahah...
Dawn with a gun = headshot
Nichloas, Anton, Teck chai and marcus = dota forever



I can't think of anymore. while jingting and i were discussing our family, guess what i said.


is it yingbin's wife or my husband?


I am so blur sometimes.


LAME!

Hell0 people.

I just wanna say a REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLY big thank you to Jiaying for posting that thing on her blog. THere's absolutely no need to say sorry okay? Hahahaha! you remembered and that made me, really, really happy alr. X)

Big, Big big big big Thanks to all those people who wished me happy bday too, Gerald for treating me a movie and sweets, Siyin, Lisa, Charmaine, Amanda, Diondra, Joshua amadaeus, Joshua Poh, Benjammin poh, Wanjing, Chloe, Ruth, Zhiwei And 3b2 for fantastically remembering it's my bday. I know some of you didn't wish me..and i'm going to hunt you down personally..muahahhahaha!!! just kidding. NAhh it's okay. Well, now i'm at the polo club with my brother, finished my round of exersise and i just bathed too. going to go have a drink later.