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/ 5/31/2006 04:43:00 PM
Wednesday, May 31, 2006

Today, everything was fine until i discovered i had tution. Who has tution on birthdays and after exams? I don't even get to spend a couple of hours with my friends. Nice start turning fifteen. Thanks to you guys wishing me happy birthday, Thanks Dion for going out with me. and gerald too.



/ 5/31/2006 12:36:00 AM

THANKS TO RUTH FOR FIRST WISHING ME HAPPY BDAY. HAHAHA! well. yeah. after that anqi went online and wished me happy bday too. I'm going to count how many people remembered and execute those who don't HAHA.

Count: 6.





/ 5/31/2006 12:23:00 AM

Happy Birthday To me!



/ 5/30/2006 11:23:00 PM
Tuesday, May 30, 2006

RANDOM!









/ 5/30/2006 03:26:00 PM

After the jazz concert, i somehow went to jia ying's blog, and now i have to do a quiz.


.1. Starting Time: 3.24pm

2. Full Name: Billy Zheng Xiang Peng.

3.Best Friend(s): Song Yang, Ezra, Timothy Chew, Timothy Chong, Gerald Ong, Joshua Poh, Benjamin Poh, Melvin Wong, Daryl Wong, Yu Ming, Gareth Tan (my cousin actually!), Han Yingbin, Mark Chua, Daniel Low, Byron, Teck Chai, Calvin Loo, Lizhu, Fionella Foo, Vanessa Choo, Pierre, Jing Ting -I don't want to type anymore. too many best friends.

4.Sexiest Friend: Byron HAHAHAH.!

5. Funniest Friend(s): Gerald, Timothy Chew, Song Yang, Timothy Chong, Sandeep, Daniel Teo, Chua Ligang, Nathaniel Hartono, William Bradley.

.6. Smartest friends: Mervyn Lau, Wesley Kam, Kenneth, Yin Li.

!7. Dumbest Person: Timothy Chew

.8. Shyest Friend: Chloe? no idea.

.9. Most boring person: I don't find anyone boring

.10. Who Do you get advice from: Dalai Lama

.11. Height : 174

12. Date Of Birth: 31 may

13.Righty / Lefty : Righty

.15. Shoe Size : No idea. To lazy to measure.

.17. Do you Crack any Body Parts: Knuckles, Neck, Back, Toe knuckles.

.18. Siblings: 1 bro 1 sis

.20. Email Address: xadriel2@hotmail.com

21. Boy Friend/Girl Friend: Single.

22. Crush: Damela.

23. Liked a Teacher: No.

.25. Hope the person you send this to would reply: yes,

26. Ate a Tub of Ice Cream: No, I'm not so greedy.

.27. Ran Into a Glass Door :Yes. I am super engrossed sometimes.

29. Gone Skinny Dipping: god no

.30. Nearly hit by a car: Yes, Brushed my hip. super lucky.

.31. Ran into a parked car: no

.35. Boxers or Briefs: Briefs.

36. Tall or Short : Tall.

.37. Does size matter: No. Yoda rocks.

.38. Six-pack or Muscular Arms: Doesnt matter

39. Body or Personality: Personality

.40. Ear Pierced or Not : No

.41. Sporty or Outdoorsy: Both

42. Good or Bad guy:It's neccecary to be evil sometimes, so I'm neutral.

.47. G or hipster undies: what the

48. Tall or Short :Tall?

.49. Long Hair or Short : Long.

50.Dark or Light Eyes: dark Brown.

51. Light/Dark Hair: Dark brown, going light.

.52. Body or Personality: Personality.

53. Ears Pierced or Not: ears pierced

.56.Hair Up or Down : Down.

.57. Sporty or Classy: Classy.

58. Chicken or Not Afraid : not afraid

.59. Coke or pepsi: Doesnt matter

.60. K.F.C or Mcdonalds: I go to cafes, not fast food joints.

61. Cats or Dogs : Cats.

62. Coffee or Tea : Both, But i like black coffee.

63. Eastside or westside: Eastside.

64. Vanilla or chocolate: Chocolate.

65. Cake or Cookies: none.

66. Purple striped, Lime socks or white socks: No socks

67. Sunset or Sunrise:Sunrise.

68. Day or Night: Night. I'll never get over clubbing etc.

69. Lights on or off : on.

70. Summer or Winter: winter

71. Food: Fish & chips at the mount plesant cafe, along with a glass of white wine.

.73. Holiday destination: Shanghai, China. OR Spain.

74. Radio Station: Lush 99.5.

75:Place: 323a thomson road.

76. Will you believe in God: Soometimes yes, sometimes no, All depends.

.77. What you want to be when you grow up: Designer, Guitarist, Jazz guitarist, Bird Specialist, Artist.

.78. Define Love: Love is a paradox. It causes happpiness but in the end it all comes down to suffering because there is an end to a relationship. It is so wonderful, You see it everywhere, on blogs, songs, written on people's faces, and yet you think of it it's a drug like heroin, so i pretty much am tempted to take it but waiting for the best tasting one (sounds evil.)

80. Favourite Place: Junction 8, Plaza Singapura, Acs Barker, Saint Nicholas's girls, MGS, Wesley methodist church, Bukit Timah Plaza, quite a few. too lazy to name. and esplanade.

.81. Favourite day(s) of the week: Every day is a chance to do everything so no preference.

82. Bedtime: 3-5 am usually.

83. Who Is Least Likely To Send This Back: Timothy Chew

84. Satan or God or atheist: I'm a buddhist-freethinker.

85. Do you love someone right now: No

.86. Do you care about someone: I care for every single person i've met and those who suffer in problems.

.87. Do you think of someone everyday: Yes.

.89. Do you think someone is special in any way: Yes, and no. Everyone has a flaw.

90. Finishing time: 5:43 pm

91. Date: 30th May

I want these 10 people to do it:
1. Zhiwei
2. Calvin
3. Lisa
4. Anton
5. Lizhu
6. vanessa
7. Ben poh
8. Ben
9. Yue Peng
10. fang Ting


I was quite lazy to do it.



/ 5/30/2006 11:34:00 AM

Floating down the river named Emotion...

Today i woke up and i went on msn. and i talked to wanjing about alot of stuff. It really these people who make me who i am. I mean. without them? life would be terribly different. Shit. i have to go esplanade. take care guys, tag, and thanks wj.



/ 5/29/2006 03:56:00 AM
Monday, May 29, 2006

http://www.myspace.com/johnmayer


I found John Mayer's blog! Gasp!!



/ 5/29/2006 02:51:00 AM

Hey guys. so it's three in the morning. and i'm still good. Yeah. so now like. I just decided to move on cause It's just kinda sick being a gothic freak. So, big thanks to Lisa for helping me and knocking some real sense into me. I was wondering too because today was one of the days where i really got to do what i want. and i just am going to change for the better. I've always been putting others in front of me, but now i guess it's time for me to put myself in front of some things. like hey, I'm not as low as dirt right? At least i have some dignity and things to hold on to. So I'm just going to change and be reborn, like a phoenix. The old untalkative me has passed away and a new Bill's coming your way for the better. Okay, so recently i've been real lazy. Alot of things i just don't feel like doing. sometimes i just don't even feel like blogging or going on maple/gunz. kinda shitty feeling like you wanna just jet and do something. So. I spent most of the day like that, but in the end i resorted to playing a whole big load of guitar. Today i discovered how to play the intro to Incubus's "a certian shade of green" the "lounge" version as brandon boyd calls it. Also, I've been practicing canon D Rock frequently, I'm no where near the standard of Funtwo, but I'm woeking towards it and i'm determined to one day do that fantastically impossible curve that just pwns me now.


So what am I doing up at two am? Let's go back to sunday 9pm. Well, I had a great time talking on msn to some people, Kinda intresting and cool. Seems like they like the new me than the old me better. heh. Anyway, I also tried doing stuff on fireworks and photoshop which turned out to be disasterous and unsavable. At about ten, i took a break and i played certian shade of green for a while. I also discovered How to strum Praise adonai..very very crudely. I'm working on how to strum correctly without that mute now. At About eleven, I was talking to Siyin's cousin, Anqi. She's in china now, And well from what i hear it's pretty cool and intresting. Well, we talked about many things- Russell peters (that made me laugh until i cried) , Incubus..music..grades..alot of things. then suddenly i saw this fantastic video of John Mayer performing Neon (The current blog song.) live on NBC. Somehow i cannot get my hands across the Guitar fretboard, and it always screws up every time i try..and John Mayer he can do it because..his hand are like..woah..fast and cool..big too. Well she thinks it's nice too. Well, After Anqi logged off i talked to several people for a while..Clare, Mervyn, and mark. Mervyn's leaving for china today, and he's making the final preperations to do things. Mark's staying up to play games, and he's cool. Kinda like we share the same woe at three am because we don't have chilled beer to knock us out after that..Actually mark has Japanese beer..but it's not chilled..And i don't want to take the French wine my mum bought the other day for me. Kinda really too cold. I'm taking it out tomorrow.


-I shall take a short break to stretch.-

Okay. my arms hurt like hell. I've been doing pullups too much i think. X(. Anyway. as i was saying. I don't really wanna take the french wine so I'm taking it out to warm up a bit because it' just super ice cold. And well, here i am now, trying to beat the curve on canon D which just pwns me. well, I have nothing more to post, So I'm going to write updates now.



- New song coming up (neon by John Mayer)
- Improvements to the blog box
- (maybe) Make a bigger than my body skin.
- Change the sidebar avatar etc. ( I'm too lazy.)
- tag more
- increase the size of the tagboard.

Yeah i think thats all.



well, i got nothing to do, So I'm going to go off now. Tag me guys.



/ 5/28/2006 01:33:00 PM
Sunday, May 28, 2006

Hai. Today i went to church. At first i was sian. Then i was okay..I'm quite happy to go there because the people there are so friendly..I went late though..but Song was kind enough to bring me there..Thanks Bro..Anyway..I'm just feeling so happy that at least there's a place i can let out my sorrows and sing my heart out..and just be nice and good again..After church i went to plaza sing for a while..then went to United square. I was quite bored..and i didn't want to go home..so I hanged around a bit..drank coke..and then finally went home. It started raining..but i felt okay. Well i'm here now..tired..but at least a bit comforted..


I understand i cannot move on..I just cannot. I'm stuck in a parodox?..But i have to accept it...It makes me very very very very sad to be like this..I mean..my brithday is here..i should be so happy..i got my electric guitar..i got so many things..i got so many friends..so many people are just nice to me now...and the holidays are coming..and my brother is back..and now i am so so upset because i made someone hate me...I just cannot be happy anymore..I cannot stand seeing people cry, and be in pain, or be so unhappy..It breaks my heart a million times like that...But its sometihing i have to do to live on...I must move on no matter if leaving it behing means driving thousands of spiked appendages into my body and running them up and down..


Well..my birthday is coming...and i just..wish that my pain will go away....If it;s there..then i have to just accept it..I'll celebrate my birthday a fifteen year old unhappy, broken, idiotic freak of nature..anyway...I just wanna thank some people for staying beside me...well..rona..ok....hai..but..nvm....song..thanks bro...wj...Thanks alot alot ok...?..I appreciate it alot alot alot..<3..lisa..i'll>



I just dispensed my emotions and look what i got



/ 5/27/2006 07:06:00 PM
Saturday, May 27, 2006

It's just so easy to slit my throat BUT WHY DON'T I DO IT?!....I JUST WANNA DIE NOW...MY HEAD HURTS ALOT AND I JUST WANT TO DIE...HOW COME THINGS CANNOT BE LIKE BEFORE..WHY.......WHY????>......NOTHING SEEMS TO BE THERE...NO ONE..I'M ALONE AND DEAD AND NO ONE GIVES A SHIT..NOT EVEN MY FAMILY...GOD..WHY AM I JUST SO ALONE?!....I JUST WANNA DIE AND DIE..WHY CAN'T I JUST DIE AND LET IT END IT'S JUST SO GOD DAMN DEAD AND SHIT..



/ 5/27/2006 06:45:00 PM

WHY IS IT SO HARD......I JUST WANT TO DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIEDIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIEDIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIEDIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIEDIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIEDIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIEDIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIEDIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIEDIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIEDIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIEDIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIEDIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIEDIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIEDIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIEDIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIEDIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIEDIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIEDIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIEDIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIEDIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIEDIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIEDIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIEDIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIEDIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIEDIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIEDIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIEDIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIEDIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIEDIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIEDIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIEDIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIEDIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIEDIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIEDIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIEDIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIEDIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIEDIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIEDIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIEDIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIEDIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIEDIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIEDIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIEDIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIEDIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIEDIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIEDIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIEDIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIEDIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIEDIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIEDIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIEDIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIEDIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIEDIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIEDIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIEDIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE DIE



/ 5/27/2006 05:07:00 PM

I just wish i died. Sometimes i just feel. Sick. even though I'm not. I try to run and make my feelings go away and just be normal. But well I can't. I'm abnormal. I just can't keep my feelings inside and my thoughts from thinking. and i think it just cost me someone's friendship and trust. It's not the first time..And i just feel as if my other side's coming back to control me?..But this side i just feel so confused..I want to help people..but i can't..i just do it wrong all the time. And it conflicts so much, and the pain after thinking that being such a freak of nature costs other people's lives and happiness. It just seems..whenever i try to talk i just screw things up. It's so difficult. I just cannot stand to see people suffer and be unhappy. I just want everyone to smile..And look what i made..I made everyone sad..I broke a friendship..I jepordiazed a relationship..and my brain is so confused..broken into half..and i have no understanding of what's going on. And what's worse. After so many months of struggling to pass and do well and all the blood sweat and tears, the month of holidays started like that. Sometimes after thinking i just want to go out that window and jump. sometimes i just wish i could make my pain into something else. My art and guitar..I don't think it just helps to make things better..It gets worse..after running away..It always comes back stronger. I cannot seem to sleep well, and i don't really think much. Today at my lunch everyone seemed to think i was tired..and people told me i was really blank and stoning frequently..I think it really shows now. My heart is really really very pain inside. I don't know how to describe it..hai. It's like you made a mistake...a stupid mistake..and it cannot be changed..Hai...and then..i just feel like dying and crying..because i cannot do anything to make this feelings go away..I just need to end things..It's so painful!!!!!!!!!!!.....I cannot describe how pain it is...It's just so agonizing!!#~!!11...I just want to make it end. just end..and just leave...and..hai...someitmes i just think..when I'm dead..no one will give a shit...and they'll just say..Stupid billy..jump for what..HAI..............itsd just so painl la.....I'll post latere.....I cannottr type propreerly anyomre....Feel Like cring my heart out......t...I.....



/ 5/26/2006 11:15:00 PM
Friday, May 26, 2006

Wish I was too dead to cry
My self-affliction fades
Stones to throw at my creator
Masochists to which I cater

You don't need to bother;
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on,
I won't let go 'til it bleeds

Wish I was too dead to care
If indeed I cared at all
Never had a voice to protest
So you fed me shit to digest
I wish I had a reason;
my flaws are open season
For this, I gave up trying
One good turn deserves my dying

You don't need to bother;
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on,
I won't let go 'til it bleeds

Wish I'd died instead of lived
A zombie hides my face
Shell forgottenwith its memories
Diaries leftwith cryptic entries

And you don't need to bother;
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on,
I won't let go 'til it bleeds

You don't need to bother;
I don't need to be
I'll keep slipping farther
But once I hold on:
I'll never live down my deceit



/ 5/26/2006 11:13:00 PM

Broken up.



/ 5/26/2006 04:27:00 PM

Sigh. I can't do anything now. I'm just trying alot to pray to god..He gives me comfort..but after a while sometimes these feelings just slip back..



Maybe it's just depression..



I've heard there was a secret chord
That David played, and it pleased the Lord
But you don't really care for music, do you?
It goes like this The fourth, the fifth
The minor fall, the major lift
The baffled king composing Hallelujah

Hallelujah Hallelujah
Hallelujah Hallelujah

Your faith was strong but you needed proof
You saw her bathing on the roof Her beauty
and the moonlight overthrew you
She tied you To a kitchen chair
She broke your throne, and she cut your hair
And from your lips she drew the Hallelujah

Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah

Mabye I have been here before
I know this room, I've walked this floor
I used to live alone before I knew you
I've seen your flag on the marble arch
Love is not a victory march
It's a cold and it's a broken Hallelujah

Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah

There was a timeYou let me know
What's real and going on below
But now you never show it to me, do you?
And remember when I moved in you?
The holy dark was moving to
And every breath we drew was Hallelujah

Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah

Maybe there's a god above
And all I ever learned from love
Was how to shoot at someone who outdrew you
And it's not a cry you can hear at night,
It's not somebody who's seen the light
It's cold and it's a broken Hallelujah

Hallelujah, Hallelujah Hallelujah,
Hallelujah Hallelujah, Hallelujah
Hallelujah, Hallelujah



/ 5/26/2006 03:23:00 PM

Jesus, i feel so stupid. God damn stupid.





How come i just feel as if i backstabbed a friend? I guess i really did. =(





ahh just forget it. I can't do anything good at all. I'm just drop dead worthless. You know i just try to help. and then sometimes it's just so crazed up that nothing happens.




I guess maybe it's just time to forget about friendship and helping..I think just me being friends with anyone will harm that person...



/ 5/26/2006 12:13:00 AM

Yeah well.
Tonight i went out to watch xmen 3 with my cousin peck eng. He figured he got free tickets..so yeah..he invited me.well..After the movie i went back home and here i am..nothing much to talk about..anyway..I just sometimes think ah. I am sometimes not really helping alot of people when I'm trying to be compassionate..It gets in their way sometimes. hai. =/


Well, I just wanna say a big thank you to siyin who listened to me and all..Thanks, from deep within my heart. I'm very grateful that you stood by me and listened to me every second. To yingbin too, Thanks for hearing me out. Sorry i wasted your time or anything.


Well, I found out how to play Coldplay's yellow on my new guitar, I like the tune, I've been playing lots and lots now. I also found out how to play no such thing thanks to my brother and his wise teaching.


..now I'm kinda looking forward to spending time with my friends..I haven't gone out in ages. I think maybe bowling would be nice..or movies, Or just chilling at someone's house, maybe even stay up late. I'd like that alot. =) I sometimes think of going ice skating though, but I reconsidered..It's a tad expensive..haha. I'm thinking of heading over to plaza sing tomorrow to buy some guitar wires, my brother's one to the amplifer modifier is fried, and he gotta go out tomorrow. So maybe I'll save him the favor. Hmm..also I think i should get new speakers for my brother. Well..Now I'm online..and i see no one wants to talk to me. Hai. You know, suddenly i miss chloe's handwriting alot. It always makes my day a whole lot better. <=)


Well..I was just thinking also. Sometimes i guess it's people's place to do what they want..But no matter how hard it feels..It's not to interfere.






Proper reply to tags.
- zhiwei. >.<
- Peijia. Sure thing.
-Jiaying. I just explained on msn.
-Siyin. Thank you loads and loads and loads forever. I appreciate your help so much.


Well now, i feel like staying up..Don't wanna sleep.I'll post later.



/ 5/25/2006 06:18:00 PM
Thursday, May 25, 2006

Right. now since zhiwei forced me to do it i'll do it, but anyway i think it's going to be funny. prepare to laugh and fall.

Name 20 people you can think of at the top of your head. Don't read the questions below before you answer and tag 5 people to do this survey.
1. Gerald
2. Amresh
3. Timothy
4. Sharyl
5. Julia
6. Yangsheng
7. Zhiwei
8. Pierre
9. Ben
10. Fangting
11. John Mayer
12. Brandon Boyd
13.Ronald
14. Song
15. Yeupeng
16. Wan Jing
17. Sakai
18.Chloe
19. Ezra
20. Shaun

-When did you meet 14?(Song) Sec two!

-What would you do if you never met 1?(Gerald) I wouldn't be such a good artist, and i will die running around naked because of insanity with no friends

-What would you do if 20 and 9 dated?(Shaun and Ben) I will be quiet at first. Then go insane and finally get it and laugh like hell

-Did you ever like 19?(Ezra) as a friend and halo player, yeah, loads.

-Would 6 and 17 make a good couple?(Yangsheng and Zhiwei) No. The studious, small, Serious and kind guy, with a nice jumpy humourous girl? I don't think so. lol.

Describe 3.(Timothy) A bastard, loser, and dumbass who taped his own fight video and it ended up in youtube. (go search for acsbr, and then click the second one.)

-Do you think 8 is attractive?(Pierre) I will die first, then say yes.

-Tell me something about 7.(Zhiwei) She's nice, pretty, intelligent, very, very nice to talk to, very funny, and a very good friend as well. Love her to bits.

-Do you know any of 12's family?(Brandon Boyd) I don't really know, but his other family, his band incubus, They are hot rockers. (:

-What's 8's favourite?(Pierre) Making stupid jokes and irritating gerald

.-What would you do if 11 confesses that he/she likes you?(John Mayer) I will stop listening to his music, and back away very slowly, and tell everyone on the net that john mayer, guitarist and singer, is gay to the core.

-What language does 15 speak?(Yuepeng) British english with american slang chinese, and hokkien.

-Who is 9 going out with?(Ben) FT?

-How old is 16 now?(Ronald) 13.

.-When was the last time you talked to 13?(Ronald) Today

-Who's 2 favourite band/singer?(Amresh) Linkin park

-Would you date 4?(Sharyl) If she wants to..

-Would you date 7?(Zhiwei) I have difficulty breathing now. well if she wants to?? LOL!

-Is 15 single?(Yuepeng) No, he married his guitar. Just kidding. yeah.

-What's 10's last name?(Fangting) Zheng Fangting.

-Would you ever be in a serious relationship with 11?(John Mayer) Only if this relationship is band member.

-What school does 3 go to?(Timothy) Acsbr

.-Where does 6 live?(Yangsheng) Up my...I don't know.

-Whats your favourite thing about 5?(francine) She's pretty, Funny, and nice.

-Have you seen no.1 naked?(Gerald) Jesus holy mother cow, NO FUCKING WAY! GOD DAMn, The thought is so horrifying...AHHHHH!!!!!

-Name 5 people to do this dumb [but fun] thing.

1. Anton
2. Yingbin
3. Yp
4. Diondra
5. Ben poh


Have fun laughing.



/ 5/25/2006 04:58:00 PM

Ahh. some guy from deviantart randomly tagged on me this hundred word quiz. and I think I'm going to die doing it. =.=

Here goes.
1. Name: Bill
2. Nickname: Oi, Bee bee, Wah lao, Dearith, Xadriel, Boss X))
3. Birthday: May 31th, 1991
4. Place of Birth: Singapore
5. Zodiac Sign: Gemini
6. Male or Female: Male.
7. Education: Sec 3
8. Schools you went to: Pat's Schoolhouse, Julia Gabriel, Acspr, Acsbr.
9. Occupation: Student/Designer/Part Time Errand Guy
10. Residence: 323a Thomson Road, Singapore.
11. Screen Names: Bill, Xadriel, Bladriel, Cladriel, Basically anything that ends with adriel.
12. Hair Colour: Brown.
13. Hair Length: Long Fringe, almost long sides
.14. Eye colour: brown
15. Best Feature: Er..hair? LOL.
16. height: 174
17. Braces?: Nope
18. Glasses?: Yeah.
19. Piercing: nope
20. Tattoos: nope
21. Righty or Lefty: Righty
22. First best friend: Andreas
23. First Award: er..I can't remember. oh. first place in singing in kindergarten.
24. First Sport You Joined: BADMINTON!
25. First Pet: A blue Budgie Named Bolly.
26. First Real Vacation: Hong Kong?
27. First Concert: Phantom of the opera.
28. First Love: ahhhhhh......er..This girl at tution..Pamela..But we don't talk much.

___ Favorites___

29. Movie: Last samurai.
30. TV Show: CSI
31. Colour: Blue.
32. Rapper: Eminem ( I like when I'm gone. so touching chorus.)
33. Band: John Mayer's Trio
34. Song Right Now: Inside of love by nada surf. (Hey it rhymes)
35. Friend: erm..uh...so many..let me think..aha..zhiwei because I'm talking to her now..X)
36. Candy: chocolate x3 with Jelly and such.
37. Sport to Play: BADMINTON!!!
38. Restaurant: Daily Bread Cafe @ Acsbr (yeahh proud of it! X))
39. Favorite brand to wear: 37 DEGREES! MY OWN BRAND LOL.
41. School Subject: LITLITLITLITLITLITLITLITLITLIT
42. Animal: Birds
43. Book: Yue Fei.
44. Magazine: 8days?.
45. Shoes: Sneaky white school shoes

___Currently___

46. Feeling: BORED
47.Single or Taken?: Single..haiz..I'm unattractive.. <='(
49. Eating: Nothing
50. Drinking: water
51. Typing: this.
52. Online?: yeahhs
53. Listening To: Nada surf on my com
54. Thinking About: rain, Philosophy, Idiots, anger, timeless and priceless things, hell, Existence of things unseen, basically alot lah.
55. Wanting To: Have a girlfriend. hai. =(
56. Watching: this screen
57. Wearing: Blue shirt and short pants.

__________Future__________

58. Want Kids? dunno. maybe. i always wanted a little sister so daughter maybe?
59. Want to be Married: If she reallyis happy to get married i don't mind.
60. Careers in Mind: Band member, Designer, Birdologiest( I think that's how it's spelt.)
61. Where do you want to live?: Wherever she wants to live.
62. Car. :Convertible for me, anything for her
63. Hair colour: Brown-golden
64. Hair length: Ponytail-long.
65. Eye colour: Blue
66. Measurements: slim/thin?
67. Cute or Sexy: Just cute..I don't mind appearance actually.
68. Lips or Eyes: Eyes
69.Hugs or Kisses: both
70. Short or Tall: Tall
71. Easygoing or serious: depends on the situation..
72. Romantic or Spontaneous: again, depends on the situation
74. Sensitive or Loud: Sensitive.
75. Hook-up or Relationship: Relationship
77. Trouble Maker or Hesitant One: Hesitant.
78. Kissed a Stranger: Nope
79. Had Alcohol: Yes. White wine.
80. Smoked: nope.
81. Ran Away From Home: nope.
82. Broken a bone: nope
85. Broken Someones Heart: not intentionally..I did..haiz..
86. Broken Up With Someone: No..I don't have a girlfriend..haiz....
87. Cried When Someone Died: No..I Don't cry..I accept the death and move on...
88. Cried At School: nope.
89. God: I wouldn't know, I don't really care.
90. Miracles: nah. everything happens for a reason.
91. Love At First sight: nah.
93. Aliens: Well, we can't be alone in this universe...
94. Soul Mates: why not
95. Heaven: nah
96. Hell: nah
97: True love: Love is love damn it
98. Kissing on The First Date: I have never been on a serious date..haizzz...ugly me..
99. Horoscopes: Gemini

___Answer Truthfully___

100. Is there someone you want but you know you can't have?
Yeah, because I'm just a freak out, damn ugly person. HAIZ. =(

Now. People to do this and suffer trying

1. Zhiwei.
2. Ben Poh
3. Siyin
4. Jia Ying
5. Calvin

okay. done....so long..i feel so tired..........*falls onkeyboard*mn fsdhgfdjfkjhggfjdjjjjjjjjjjjjjj ( that;s my head hitting the keyboard)LAME
Now people i tagged...suffer..muahahahah.....



/ 5/24/2006 10:21:00 PM
Wednesday, May 24, 2006

And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling
And I didn't feel a thing, So baby don't feel no pain
Just smile back

And when I'm gone, just carry on, don't mourn
Rejoice every time you hear the sound of my voice
Just know that I'm looking down on you smiling
And I didn't feel a thing,
So baby don't feel no pain
Just smile back...



/ 5/24/2006 09:07:00 AM

Updates: New song coming up, The sidebars have been improved, New signature coming up, Updating the main picture soon.



/ 5/24/2006 01:48:00 AM

Right! It's one fifty in the morning and i'm still good! well, now I'm kinda thinky so I'm gonna post. well. recently there have been alot of events eh? Well. one of them, is this frickin spammer from yingbin's blog. now. Think about it. why would a person like that try and attack people? attacking people is pointless, it just causes more and more suffering. Not removing that grudge is like having a pebble in a shoe! It's not so hard to remove that pebble. I guess spammer over here's got a pebble in her shoe. I'm just wondering why she's complaining about how stupid i am and waste my time, while she got like, that grudge in her shoe.

Another thing. Okay, I've been wondering why sometimes people can't just express their opinions properly. Some people just come up and post "YOUSUCKAHAHHAHAHAH!!!!" and it's like no one's buisness! What the shit. I mean, at least some people should put it in a gentlemanly way and be nice. It's full of shit i tell you. seriously. When you wanna write a letter to the principal about something, you don't say "Fuck you, give me your ears." you say, "Dear madam, could you please lend us some time?" Come on. People wanna be nice. be nice back.

One other thing. why the shit is it such a problem to meddle in other people's love lives? Seriously. Take my Friend for example. Let's call her Ting. T has a boyfriend called L. So, T &L have a nice relationship, then they decide to turn it down as T has eyes for another person. Now, I agree that it may be not the right thing to turn down someone, and so called, Be heartless. But, It's T's life. who the hell gives you permission to interfere? No frickin one. So guys who know what I'm talking about. Leave her alone for god's sakes. Her life's hers.


Okay. Now I'm going to talk about that heartless part. Not related to the ting part. Sometimes i don't understand at all, why the hell some people have to be so unreasonable and heartless, and materialistic. You would leave something for something better, though that something was valuable like a heirloom. And the feeling that you have when you throw away the valuable things? "Oh, it was just a waste of time." Imagine now. Someone does that to a human being. even worse, when this human being is family, or even girlfriend or boyfriend. They will be so darn hurt. Hurt to the edge of pain. I mean. even suicidal. I've heared of some cases where like girlfriends dump boyfriends, and then the boyfriend is so sick, so sian, he murders the girlfriend then shoots himself. Is this love? Where is it? I mean come to think of it. they blame each other! it's like the Girlfriend is said to be the cause because she dumped the guy..and blah blah..and then court case and money loss, etc etc. WHY SO HARD AND COMPLICATED SOMETIMES?!

Other than being heartless, I can't believe that sometimes people can be so irritating, and just act as if they are so right. Rightness and pride is so evident in them, they become irritating. It's like they are encroaching on you to prove something stupid. I mean, it's like stupid philosophy teachers who think you are asking a smart question when it is really damn stupid. and then they ask the class to think about it. what bullshit. They act like, so big, but they are stupid inside. then, there are people who are blind. cannot think. damn dumb lah. like full of nothing ness blinding their every though.I can't stand it.




Enough about that stupid shit. today i played alot of guitar. in the morning i had a-maths. later, i went swimming and jogging with my brother. We then went to eat lunch..then go to the laselle school of arts. the art was fantastic. very creative. went back, and i used the com. started playing maple alot. got to level 22. the electric guitar was fantastic. it's nice, very sleek, cool to touch and great to play. blah blah..then i talked to Jiaying about some sth..then i went to play games for a while..design..play guitar ALOT...then here i am..typing..at two am. heh. I'm going to stay up till about 7am, which is about 4.hours and 55.miniutes away..lol..I'm staying up to celebrate end of midyears. what else. okay. I shall be random now.


20 things i discovered.
1. I have a passion for martial arts.
2. I prefer Nonya Bak Chang.
3. I hate prawns sometimes.
4. I am nice to my brother for the first time in years.
5. My voice changed.
6. People havent been tagging me.
7. I play better with an electric guitar.
8. I hate people who are not compassionate and who are blind.
9. My hair is growing very long.
10. there was a fire opposite the street yesterday.
11. I have a moustache.
12. I have really hard Biceps.
13. I can play any simple song on the guitar.
14. I think I am a freethinker,
15. I find gays and lesbians allright.
16. I likes good techno music.
17. There are two cats living on my roof.
18: My room is very comfortable, and is naturally cold for some reason.
19. Some idiots never learn.
20. People think love is cool. stupid people.



/ 5/22/2006 07:53:00 PM
Monday, May 22, 2006

So. These couple of days have been good, had chem on friday, had physics today. my good ol brother is back in town, after 6 months, and HE GAVE ME AN ELECTRIC GUITAR FOR A PRESENT. YEahhh!!! SMOKIN! yeah. it was damn hot. Sleek blue colour, quite light, nice to touch, and great to play. Tomorrow is my a-maths, but i ain't giving a shit, because the whole damn level is going to fail.anyway. the GUITAR ROCKS. I LOVE IT. haha. hmm..what else. ooh yeah. song, a couple of guys and i are going to raid chew's house on wednesday, steal his stuff and jet to song's house! oohyeah.

Happy birthday vanessa! Better remember my birthday or i'll cut you to bits hehehe!




/ 5/19/2006 03:21:00 PM
Friday, May 19, 2006

That's it. I've been trying to tolerate and relax and I've reached my breaking point, But i'm going to do this like a gentleman Like Bro Song suggested and don't flirt like an idiot no more. If you spammers read this, (Yes, this includes you Claudia, Unless you don't find a proper reason to explain why you tagged.) I have your I.P addresses, and I'm ready to submit them to the police Department with a report for harrasment against Me and My friends.

Want the proof?
Here it is.


Date:06-05-18 17:12:37
IP:202.156.242.74- Impersonator.
Additional informaion:

Name: cm74.gamma242.maxonline.com.sg
IP Address: 202.156.242.74
Location: SINGAPORE ( 1.283N, 103.850E)
Network: SGCABLEVISION-SG




Date:06-05-16 11:47:48
IP:219.74.165.186- Someone/Annon.
Additional Information:

Name: bb219-74-165-186.singnet.com.sg
IP Address: 219.74.165.186
Location: SINGAPORE ( 1.283N, 103.850E)
Network: APNIC5




I know who you are and i traced it. Someone, I know you singned up for singnet and where you did it. I know when you signed up too. So, Now i have your e-mail host address, your I.P, and your service provider. Now, I just need to find a geographical program to put that in and find out who you are. Or send this to the police and let them find out who you are. =)


Need more proof?




I'm just going to wait until you post again anon. Then I'll really start cracking into your life.



/ 5/18/2006 03:18:00 PM
Thursday, May 18, 2006

Hey guys. So. Monday was maths. Tuesday was english, wed was lit and today was history, basically everything's okay. Today mark and gerald came over to study chem, I taught them the first few chapters and the mole concept from about 11 to 2..then at three we were using the com to watch some crazy youtube movies..it was damn funny. Well they left and now I'm here using the com. :D So anyways. Stuff's boring..changed the skin lol. hmm. there's a spammer on my blog. who cares. damn funny. you know last time i started flirting with her. lol. i bet she's like argghhh who the fuck does he think he is. Ahh..who cares about her anyway. bet she's just some emo goth bitch lol. zz. so bored. stop posting. and happy early birthday vanessa. <3 I'll pass you your presents another time.



/ 5/15/2006 09:33:00 PM
Monday, May 15, 2006

heyy. lol. there's a SOMEONE on my blog. so funny man, go read, I mean, HAHA IT'S FREAKING DOUBLE ENTERTAINMENT MAN! DAVID LETTERMAN AND JAY LENO! LOL! HEY HEY SOMEONE, I KNOW like, lol, you wanna get my attention and get things on you know..heh..say..why don't you add me on msn and chat a while eh? hehe. xadriel2@hotmail.com Come to bed lover..LOL. anyway guys. MY BIRTHDAY IS FREAKING SOON! LIKE 31 MAY! WOOHOOOOOOO! I'm gonna be fifteen!I'm gonna be fifteen!I'm gonna be fifteen!I'm gonna be fifteen!I'm gonna be fifteen!I'm gonna be fifteen!I'm gonna be fifteen!I'm gonna be fifteen!I'm gonna be fifteen!!!!!! DAMN RIGHT! HAHAHA. =D gotta go now. english exams tmr, wish me luck!



/ 5/15/2006 06:12:00 PM

This is a special broadcast. The spammer from yingbin's blog thinks I'm uncivilised. But anyway. Why does she care? I bet she likes me..LOL!..So anyway..annon..don't be shy leh..tell me your name..I'd like to know you better leh...LOL.



/ 5/12/2006 10:06:00 PM
Friday, May 12, 2006

YOSH PEOPLE.
okay. so far i had english and maths paper one IT"S SO DAMN EASY BUT MATHS WAS A REAL SHIT INSULT TO INTELLIGENCE? LOL! anyway. life's cool, had vesak day today, it was okay. i went out yesterday to an itallian restraunt with my dad's friend daniel. IT WAS SO COOL. I love the white wine, the pasta, the Bread and especially the tiramisu, and the Shot thingie at the end..lol..Well and these past couple of days i noticed like there are some spammers on my grandaughter yingbin's blog..well..I'd like to tell those daughters of a bithes, YOU TAKE ON YINGBIN YOU TAKE ME ON YEAHHH! I'LL BEAT YOUR SHIT GUTS OUT! WOOHOO! haha. okay anyway. TWO MORE WEEKS TILL ME BROTHER ARRIVES BACK HOME. It's been six months. YES! SIX FREAKINNNN MON THS! HAHA..hmmhmm..well..I'm talking to chloe now! And her handwriting is SO DARN CUTE AND NICE i could die without it. IT REALLY MAKES MY DAY ~*S*U*P*E*R*~! THANK YOU CHLOE! AND NOW. SO LONG AND GOODNIGHT, I LOVE YOU ALL, ESPECIALLY GRAND DAUGHTER AND GREAT GRAND DAUGHTER, AND LASTLY MY SISSSS FOR LETTING ME USE THE COM. BYE! TAG AND TAKE CARE!



/ 5/06/2006 07:41:00 PM
Saturday, May 06, 2006

 



PHOTOS!!!!



The weary acsboy walking home.
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Gerald sucking ribena with a edible straw?
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THE SMOKERS? O.O (Me, Kenneth.)
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Don't mess with us and we'll consider shoving a boot up your ass. Right to left, Yu ming, Gerald, Melvin, Pierre, and kenneth.
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The struggle i see
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Ah. good ol greeny school.
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ohh yeah gavin's gonna take him down
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Emmity.
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Kenneth HAHA. i took it like several meters away.
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Don't mess. (actually it looks like The're gearing for a fight from the way gavin and ryan hold their shirts.
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Men in black?
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Talk to my bodeh.
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David and moses.
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The typical scene in a maths class. there, you see the studious hard students being aided by the teacher, and on the left there are..actually what the hell are they doing lol.
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3b2. meh.
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yu ming's sillohette against the beautiful background of the cafe Daily Bread.
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Gerald. is. a. bastard. just kidding lol.
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Mel's shifty eyes.
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Mel and pierre.
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Pierre talking about dunno what
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artistic shot? O.O
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LUKEAYYYYYYY
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Backdrop of the cafe.
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Eugene and Joshua relaxxin.
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Mr potato man mark.
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Ben poh.
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HAHA CAMERA WAR WITH JOSHUA?
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/ 5/05/2006 11:23:00 PM
Friday, May 05, 2006

Hey guys. It's been a long time since i posted. So. Life's been busy nowadays. work. play. work again. less play. nth much. I've stopped being an insane shit. Stopped going goth (although i like my clothes i bought.) , stopped being antisocial. I've given up trying to be a great great person cause i think sometimes It's just going to harm others and go back the way it came. So i'm really just leaving friendship..new friends behind time for a while. I regret exposing my emotions publicly on my blog, well simply because now i think everyone is freaked out at me. I think. well. perhaps that someone i wronged maybe lost trust? i don't know. I'm just sticking by my current friends. Shedding those who wrong me. Cherishing those who cherish me too. Keeping the distance from others. Well. Enough about friendship.

Just today i had an intellectual debate about Politics at recess. Since we came out early, we ate early, and had about 45 mins to ourselves. One side argued that the PAP were dictators, and were bent on power. The other (which i sided) supports the PAP. I mean, I ended the debate saying, "We all gotta really know what's going on the in government, and pretty soon people will know. Right now it's all behind closed doors. Maybe next time, if my brother gets a position in the government, or if i take up a journalist job, I'll know. People are suffering, losing jobs, losing money, and MOST OF THE TIME, we don't know why. When I find out I'll tell you guys first." So i emphasised that most probrably we should leave politics alone and see what we can see, and stand by. We can't do anything. Might as well watch and wait. Maybe take up the opposition in times to come.

Oh yeah, and in lit class someone threw a bananna at the fan.

A couple weeks back, i saw this show called hotel rwambia. This is about a man, Paul, an african Hutu, who is caught in a conflict between the two ethnic peoples, the Toosie, and the Hutus. Much chaos has arisen, many people fight, and thousands die. In one scene, they travel in a van onto the road, and suddenly they encounter hard terrain. when they stop and step outside to take a look, it's the road, yeah. but what's on the road? Bodies. Thousands. Mutilated, rotten, dead. bodies of children, women, men, Innocent people.

I have to stop now. I'm sorry. Finish it tomorrow morning. I'm waking up early. Bye. and tag.



/ 5/02/2006 04:54:00 PM
Tuesday, May 02, 2006

Okay. I've finished up with the retardedness, blood, crazy shit and gothiness. I'm sorry. HAHA. so anyway today someone in class. threw a freaking bananna into the fan. okay. post done.



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