Mood: Clear.
Listening to: Rain Down by Delirous.

Well, been to service yesterday. Although i felt so uncomfortable and distant..and scared at first, well, god brought me back and cleared my doubts and fears. Helped me get through my grief and helped me rise through my emotions and my cloud of unsureness.

I'm gonna keep running the christian race and keep living the christian life. Times are tough, I lost trust in god and in the church for one week, but the test that god put in front of me has made me stronger. So yup. I no longer want to stop the train of life. I want it to accelerate and go on! Haha! Yup. I'm back a bigger, stronger, happier and more wiser Billy like no other Billy i've been. :D

Accepted the holy spirit too. Things seem very clear in my head now, and i hesitate when i have the temptation to slack and stuff. God works in ways amazing, i can see myself changing a bit and my family changing too (:

Nothing to blog in particular..i'll end off here.


-Still running the race-

Mood: Nada
Listening to: Kitchen sounds by my maid wilma






Life sucks, live with it.


Our motto i guess. hah.


Being emotional, the freak-ups, the life downs. Seems cool you know. They say we're all lowlifes, but i feel allright hanging around lowlifes, drinking from a snifter filled with artifical treated water, sitting around plates filled with the remains of a meal swallowed in time to reach class. Living around with the average people seems okay. We're the average joes, eating your average food prepared by the average tuckshop uncle, fried in average oil, made from average animals. There's no harm in being average and just hanging out with the bunch.


One thing though. That bunch isin't that mediocre, stupid dumbasses you think we are.


Just looking alone with a cup of coffee, I reflect over these people i meet and these people i usually see every day. They are mediocre, yeah. Mediocre in studies, with incredible talents unrecognised due to some higher, authoritarian person who invented some pointless stentorian and draconian rules that inhibits abilities of students. All invented to squeeze out the money out of their pockets I say. It's just a world going round like a peanut files off a table.


Life sucks, live with it.



We ain't that bunch of lowlifes. We fail a-math, and we try again though we know it's for nothing. But well, that's what we are. You can't change that cause that's how things work in our world. Our best is what we can do, nothing more, nothing less. You can't change us no matter what you do, even if you take our money and our lives, and our privacy away, nothing will change our way of life.

Thanks to the authoritarian we're just stuck up. We get admonished and scolded. Screwed daily by the usual demonized warped freak with a ten inch thick cane, ready to split open your flesh and ravish on your blood. That's the price of being who we are. A bunch of people who are just who they are. A bunch of people who want certian things, but we don't have the right to say it.


Life sucks, live with it.


















I hear the sound of the coffee machine dripping. It's time.








Life sucks, live with it.




We're nothing more, nothing less.



Life sucks, live with it.



Average joes with broken heads.


Life sucks, live with it.

People who want a future but ain't granted one.






Life sucks, live with it.



The money bill speaks.

Mood: Bored, with a tinge of a headache.
Listening to: All I Am, By George Benson & Al Jarreu


All I Am
By George Benson & Al Jarreu

Don't know the right words to say, I'm not magic
Don't hold the world in my hands
Wish i could fly through the air like a hero

But i'm just someone who loves you
That's all i am


Wish i could take you away to a palace
Make you the queen of the land
All the riches and gold i don't have

I'm just someone who loves you
That's all i am


Love that is true and sacred
I have all you need
and with you that's everything i need


So i'll cherish the moment i saw you
I might not get much more than that
But if you look in my heart you'll find

That i'm someone who loves you,
That's what i am

So i'll cherish the moment i saw you
Life may not give me more than that
But if you look in my heart you will find

That i'm someone who loves you,
That's all i am

Someone who loves you,
That's all i am

I'm someone who loves you,
That's all i am.

_______________________________________

Listening to this lyrics i just admire what George Benson and Al Jarreu try to put in this song. I think that this song is a declaration of love, a humble declaration of love. Just incredible. Try to get this guys, and listen. It's a unique, amazing song.



Well, Life's been tough, feel like i'm eating dirt, but oh well. I'm living with it. Catch you guys later, Got tution.

Mood: Thinkish.
Listening to: Inner City Blues, Covered by John Mayer & Band, Featuring DJ Logic.


Hey dudes. Sorry i missed church, had issues at home ):

Anyway. Life seems so strange now. I mean, sometimes i get confused. You know the feeling you get when someone promises you something GREAT and WONDERFUL and in the end it never ever seems to come? Yeah. I've been feeling that strange and intresting feeling recently, It's been affecting my Mental Balance. I feel strangely very very inlined to play than work. What else, I've been feeling really out of touch with God when i was stopped from going service yesterday, and when all sorts of problems began. I feel really upset i missed my first follow up lesson, and in replacement i got a dim sum lunch and a nice lecture on how important it is for me NOT TO EVANGELISE. (As if my parents know anything on that side.) My Grandfather's really sick too, I feel very sorry and sad for him. I really hope he gets better. Well, feeling very very disgusted at the world and at my apathetic and selfish self, I decided to waste my day away playing computer games. Finally finished Mil Agro campaign on Metal Fatigue.

Well, i was talking to Jingfen today about why i skipped service. Well, in the end she told me to have faith in myself and that God will make a way for me although i face persecution and rejection. Well, maybe God puts trials and tribulations in me and doesn't answer my prayers because he wants to train me up for future problems and harder circumstances. Maybe so. Whatever it is, I really want to keep having faith in GOD and Myself. It's disgustingly hard..but i'm trying as hard as i can.


What else. Today i dropped by ngee ann poly. It's so freaking incredible. I die die, die must get in there to take mass comm. Talk more on it tomorrow!


-Note, all other random stuff falls under here. Be prepred to laugh till insanity sets in.-

9344 hits. Thank you guys, Thanks alot. If you come here every day, tag, read my posts and keep coming back, I want to say thank you, you rock, and what up to you, and you alone!

HAPPY 14TH BIRTHDAY JIAYING!

I miss all of you guys.

You know what? I ain't changing blogskin for a very long time.

3 guys i find very nice: Daryl Wong, My Brother, Amresh Kumar.

3 girls i find very nice: Tracy Zhang, Bernice Tay, Kwoi Anqi. :D

Mood: Happy-ish
Listening to: Myself typing.


HEY GUYS. okay, school's fine, been at work all day, lessons are quite tedious but allright. Well, I've started a small prayer group in school. It's small..about 6-7 people, and today only 3 turned up, but i think it's gonna be awesome. Taking the school bit by bit. :D

Catch you guys later okay? I got tution. (:




Replies/comments
Happy 14th Birthday Jiaying! You're such a big girl now ain't ya? :D
I love Rain down. Rocks my socks.
Nice to meet you crystal. :D
HAHA. I think your'e a funny girl trace trace
I love peanuts and popcorn.

Mood: Happy-Thinky
Listening to: Breezin By George Benson and Al Jaerru

HELLO GUYS!

Blogger has funny problems, so i'm posting less. Sorry! Thanks for tagging me still, and thanks especially to my church friends (you know who you are) For prayers and cheer-ups. Really appreciate what you're doing for me. I love you all! Thanks to chloe and kay and jia for tagging too. hahaaa.

Just in case you were wondering, I AM FINE. I'm not dead. I'm alive and well and his spirit's within me. HAHA. I'm studying hard and i'm involved in cca ALOT now, so i don't go online so much. I'm still in church though! you guys can catch me around there (:


Allright, time to go. Take care guys, I'm sorry, and i really really hope to talk to all of you again. :D

Sorry guys. An error in blogger..be posting less.

Re offender
Travis

Keeping up appearances
Keeping up with the Jones'
Fooling my selfish heart
Going through the motions

But I'm fooling myself
I'm fooling myself
Cause you say you love me
And then you do it again, you do it again
You say your sorry's
And then you do it again, you do it again

Everybody thinks you're well
Everybody thinks I'm ill
Watching me fall apart
Falling under your spell

But you're fooling yourself
You're fooling yourself
Cause you say you love me
And then you do it again, you do it again
You say your sorry's
And then you do it again, you do it again
And again and again and again and again

But you're fooling yourself
You're fooling yourself
Cause you say you love me
And then you do it again, you do it again
You say your sorry's
And then you do it again, you do it again
You say you love me
And then you do it again, you do it again
You say your sorry's
And then you do it again, you do it again
And again and again and again and again





I don't feel myself..

Hey guys,