Hey.

i really feel amazing these few days, God has really shown me that really, Nothing is impossible with Faith. It's been amazing- Since giving to God, i have been so blessed. So many spiritual breakthrus, amazing experiences.

Woah, i just suddenly ran into an old post on dexter's blog that really impacted me.



Pastor Lia said something inspiring to the VBS worship team:
"You will never feel rested. This is how it is going to feel like 9 out of 10 times you go out there."

this is not only true on worship team, but on any other ministry or even our own spiritual lives. there is no rest in pursuing Jesus. in fact, Jesus did not promise us an easy happy-go-lucky lifestyle, but a life of continual submission, surrender, and discipleship.

i've learnt that the anointing of God doesn't just come with a mere praying-up. anointing comes with a holy lifestyle, a humble-and-completely-submissive heart to God, as well as utmost focus on seeking His presence at all times. In fact, this is just the start of my discovery about God's presence and anointing. I am sure there is so much more God is revealing to me slowly. Yes, time with God brings in anointing, but God has always shown me that my life, and my heart determines how much God will use me to convey His presence to the people.

this is scary because my life, my heart and my mind is so volatile and yet the responsibility to handle God's presence and anointing is all on my shoulders. indeed, without a fear of the Lord, life in worship team will be a struggle. and there is never enough fear of the Lord in us, always. i still seek to fear God more. i need to be afraid of living an unholy lifestyle. i'm not fearful enough.

God showed me a few areas of my heart i need to change. and God said this to me (or at least i felt God tugging at me in this area): "Dex, you want to have a father's heart, but look at your heart now. You are not ready yet." Then God started showing me all the areas I have to work on in my heart and character. He literally showed me area by area. He began showing me things that would make me feel all the things I would feel upset/jealous/insecure about and then He said, "You should not be reacting this way emotionally. change."

VBS was not only about memorizing memory verses (which I think i did pretty well, anyway), or receiving from different Pastors.

VBS was a physical stretch in skills and discipline.
VBS was spiritual breakthrough, in personal life with God and in character.









woah.