woah.


I had a really powerful determined impulse to really give it all our for Jesus these few months, and i really think it's gonna happen.



I'm not going to just live on myself,but your holy spirit oh God.

You are my source of strength, never failing, never ending, always there to help. You rock Jesus, You're the rock of my life.




NO MATTER WHAT THEY SAY
HIS HAND MOVES EVERY DAY
HIS POWER ECHOES THRU ENTERNITY
HE'S MARCHING WITH HIS SAINTS
HE'S POURING HEALING RAIN
IN ALL WE STAND ON THIS ETERNAL FAITH

Hey guys!



Woah..i just realised that i've been blogging a whole string of great spiritual stuff i've got no space for telling you guys what's going on in my physical life! haha.


Life has been great! Still trying to get adjusted to the sleeping hours..dont want to keep yawning and sneezing like a bear in class. Anyway, Classes have been just dandy. I think that this course is..more than anyhting, really meaningful and fufilling..even in topics like econs and biz mgt i'm convinced and feeling that this is for something great and powerful for others.

And class! how cld i forget? haha. I've met loads of crazy, insane and siao characters here and there..franciene (i dont know if it's right but please dont kill me if you read this. i have feelings.) amanda, bernice the weird-high-bear-thing, Cheryl Alison Yuqi Bryan Marcus Chuan Yu Cheng Xi Sheryl who shares almost the same bday as me..yeah. and the list goes on!


I'm really looking forward to the next few weeks of school..the load might be getting a bit tough but i'm still living and loving it :)

HELLO





haha. i'm in school now, and i finished my bloody powerpoint finally!





yayaya..i'm sitting beside bernice amanda and joshua doing...i dont know what. i'm damn sian so i'm blogging! haha.



So how's life in NP? really different from barker road definetly, but it's really fun..loads of more interesting stuff to do. and everyone's really enthu. lols















okay, some daily reflections on what's been going on with God.



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alright, i'm at home now. yeah, as i was saying..just reflecting on what God has shown me..


I just know day by day, seeking the Lord is never ending, Knowing His face is something we will have to seek forever. But why do i seek His face, or follow Him? Sometimes I wonder myself why sometimes i bother to carry on? why sometimes whenever i am down, or i've wasted a chance, or i've done something wrong, I still keep the faith, I still follow the ways. Sometimes i just wonder why I look in the face of someone i meet, and when I look again i see the potential they have in God, I see what they could be in God's hands?

An evangelist, a warrior, a worshipper, a leader, a teacher?

And sometimes I wonder why i ache in my heart whenever i look at these people and see how they live? How they do in their lives? How they're missing out on the great things that The Lord God wants in them?


I know in my heart that He is real, and nothing since the first day i met Him face to face, has been the same..and when sometimes i ask myself what's going on. I turn and He's there. I know it may sound crazy..but yeah. As the Great God was with Moses..Joshua..Samuel..david..The prophets, Jesus and the Apostles and warriors of His Name..I feel the same God speaking to me, telling me His will, His purpose. Not just 'a God.' but God the creator of the heavens and earth, the son who died on the cross and rose again, Holy spirit the guide of my ways and the changer of my heart.


Sometimes i feel tempted to step out of line, to change the way i think..to just slip away..but God has a plan and what i follow to do it..i'm still trying my best and having faith.


Sometimes i just don't understand why God chooses me and sends me to where He wants me to be, but like Moses..i think it's in the process of obedience..it's then why we understand why God wants us to do it.


I ask myself sometimes why i feel ashamed when i sing i'll never be ashamed of God's words..



But i really keep the faith in my heart that He's building a strong tower in me for His purpose..





When i look back and around me..how i really really see in my heart these people who have come, stood and gone cheering us on..as in heb:12 describes the cloud of witnesses watching us..our friends, leaders and legends who have passed on..i realise that's what keeps me going..not just hype or fun..






I really remember lynette telling me on the day i saw the Lord.."the beauty of Him is that sometimes He's just so vast, so large, so amazing and there's nothing we can do on earth that can make us fully understand Him.."



And i look back on the mercy Jesus gave me..that's what's keeping me going on..


Thru the fire and storms.. :)

i miss barker days

I was in church today and fifi was just talking about managing your finances, and i just realised that just by spending on 2 cups of bubble tea a day is gonna cost you a freaky sixty bucks per month, holy macaronized shit.


anyway, Hey.




camp was fine. wasnt too good, wasnt too bad, funny og, funny ogls. normal sth..fun stuff etc, but i was damn friggin tired, i only slept abt 4 hrs before camp started and about 2.5 for each day. okay, so what else..think man, think, dont keep the blog dead..

haha, but looking back it was damn funny, when i first went up to lt20 and met my og i was like, dear God, i said i wanted to serve you and you could send me to do your bidding, with all my heart, i'll go to the ends of the earth for you, but i'm damn sure you got this wrong.

yeah well, He's got a REAL sense of humor. lols.



Deviating away from camp..

Wow, i was kinda amazed at myself for being able to keep faithful in simple stuff i usually was struggling with at the period of time i was having issues with the team. Throughout the camp Holy Spirit really spoke into my life on different issues..and it's not just like another discipleship session, it just covered almost everything in life i was going thru.

One of the really powerful expereinces: I was doing quiet time when the men were out of the bunk, and God was really speaking clearly to me about reaching out to certian people, in their certian places, keeping the faith etc. I really experienced and realised that hey, Christianity isnt abt hype but your personal relationship with God. even in a damn cold camp room, in the supposedly most haunted block in ngee ann, i cld feel the presence of God just as if i was sitting in a service in Heart of God, City harvest, whatever.

What i really learnt was faithfulness and boldness, that being bold for something you truly love for is the best thing you could do, the best thing you could suffer for, and right then God was telling me straight in the face, "hey man, that's the faith i'm looking for in a son like you." And i just felt that I was on my way ascending to be Billy 2.0, according to God's words and promises.



Yeah powerful man! haha


I'll post more tomorrow, got guitar and archery prac tml.




ohyeah,

"It is not a human right, to stand, not fight, while broken nations dream"

So describes bzse.





God be the solution.

Hey,



Tml's orientation.



Theres 10,000 ways i can take this, in fear, hatred, sin ,Apathy, Sadness, Anger etc.



But one right way thru Jesus.







I'm gg to a new school i dont know about,

I'm studying to a course which im new at.

I'm going into a new enviroment

A new CCA

with new people.



I decide to go to a new school that i'll spread the Gospel in,

Study a course which i can do my best and glorify God in

Go into a new environment to change, impact and save lives.

A new CCA to touch and reach out to fellow members.



10,000 ways to turn away and enjoy, 1 way to live right, love right, learn right.




Out of the 10,001, I choose one way- Jesus.


And today, this is the commitment I make to myself, It's gonna be up here all the time so i can look and remember whenever i'm tempted to turn away from Him.





8/4/8 - Others can, I cannot

hey.


wow, just reflecting on what i posted from fifi's blog.

hey,



week's been really full of ups and downs.


ups:
Really went up another level in prayer
Started doing better quiet times
Things are going better with CG.
Skype
I managed to finally find how awesome is this place (Thanks Valerie!)
I'm finally shooting an accurate grouping in archery.
Getting the next week planned out great.
Looking forward to starting school..

Downs:
Rev Mrs Cho isin't coming on sat ):
Injured my fingers while trying to pull out arrows..
starting to get into rows with mum D:!





Looking at how stuff has been progressing, it's been a damn bloody fast year maaaan..






Hope the rest of the year's going to go great!

I need to stop thinking too much.
I need to stop being so bitter about things.
I need to stop thinking harmful things to people.
I need to stop taking my fustrations out on things
I need to stop loving to hate.

I need to start being a man.
I need to start loving others though they spit on me.
I need to start giving my life agian to Jesus.
I need to start cleaning up old wounds.
I need to start studying hard for Poly.
I need to start designing in a higher level.
I need to start moving myself to 2.0.
I need to start being a friendlier friend to new people.
I need to start taking my sin out and dumping it on the side of the road.
I need to start being more appreciative of my friends and leaders.
I need to start learning how to persevere in hard times.
I need to start having faith in myself.

oh my god, i think i just screwed my life up hahaha,

i have never felt the urge to blog so much in my life,



i seriously freaking think that CERTIAN PEOPLE JUST NEED TO look at themselves in the freaking mirror, and take a look from the freaking inside out, in order to freaking look what they're doing to people and freaking see how freaking stupid they are.


GOODNESS PLEASE OKAY.





sometimes people who just dont get straight to the point and FIGHT head on, take the shit goodness out of me.







bloody, freakin hell