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/ 3/30/2008 10:55:00 PM
Sunday, March 30, 2008
hey.
This week's service was really powerful, not just because of how awesome it always is, but because how much i realised how church is so God-driven, everywhere, whatever it is. This week i nearly decided to leave church (i'm not joking.) I really was in an absolute mess, i wasn't on really talking terms with people that much, and generally attitudes were getting on my nerves until i really decided on saturday afternoon that i needed a break. I faced problems i couldnt really solve, I met people whom i love and try to love, but i've caused only hatred and plain disgust towards and i can honestly say that all this really deviated me away from my path with God, Ministry was really not working out, & the relationship with God wasn't really going, I honestly felt that i was spending more time in sin than with my parents. I really felt that this saturday was the end point (something like a failed titration, the hand of power loses grip of the flask and it just breaks, sending the cautiously balanced liquid out of control and down all the way) and i decided to tell darryl this saturday that i would not be coming back to hoGc. During service it just felt ironic jumping and praising and worshipping Jesus when i knew that this could be most probrably the last time i'd ever set foot in heart of God. I prayed to God, He didnt answer, i lost my patience, i wanted to get out during service The really powerful thing was Pst How's preaching; it just drew me near, and as i listened word for word i realised that thru Pastor God was just speaking so clearly to me. Attack life. Have faith. God wants some things to die and rot, so that at the end He can ressurect them and have that miracle happen, just as Lazurus was raised from the dead. What are the stones in your life that you need to have removed? I'm thankful to God that He saved me from leaving the second time, although i've lied countless times of how i'm going to be His servant and never leave His side. Looking at what's been going on, i've really learnt how to appreciate God and His never-ending mercy. This is where i can really say that It's great to have God in my life. Pst lia once said that Pursuing Jesus is a never ending, restless cycle of surrender, worship and discipleship. I've got faith that this time it's going to be different. |
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/ 3/25/2008 07:03:00 PM
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
hi.
i just configured bluetooth from my phone to my comp and look what i found! :D  OLD SCHOOL DAYS :D Starring jiazhen the gorilla!  digging his nose..lol  now we're sleeping..  Now we're climbing! LOL  Weird freaky stain on the ceiling of dad's room. looks like a caveman yelling!  my sis. puffy cheeks  now how did THAT get on my phone i wonder? ( sherlyn >=( )  cool artwork auntie jo did at the office!  OH. and how cld i forget the kfc dinner. see right, Jianfan and JJ were super hungry, and they decided to go KFC and eat their guts out. so they ordered ONE FAMILY FEAST between the BOTH OF THEM. these are the freaky remnants :D over here..the mass of chicken waste  the many packets of chilli sauce..  so freaky D:  haha smiley face tea! :D  Visited SPH one day with uncle peck ming and friends..this table is just plain scary. If you find a messier table, i'll give you 20$. this is the messiest, most disgusting table i've seen in my LIFE more to come! i have to go study econs now D: I AM NOT MAS SELAMAT!!!!! |
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/ 3/24/2008 01:32:00 AM
Monday, March 24, 2008
shit lah, school is starting
I AM NOT MAS SELAMAT |
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/ 3/17/2008 07:40:00 PM
Monday, March 17, 2008
I'm glad to have God in my life.
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/ 3/04/2008 06:31:00 PM
Tuesday, March 04, 2008
how many of us can say, "even when my world falls i will say, above all, I live for His glory?"
and really mean it? I'm not being jaded, but this just crossed my mind. So how many men and women can really say this in front of our faces and do it? It's painful to see friends, brothers and sisters being outright hypocrites. the most painful one is myself. hm. |
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/ 3/03/2008 01:35:00 PM
Monday, March 03, 2008
hi.
I never knew registering for school was so tough. I'm drowning in a midst of forms and going-to-be-spent cash D: haha. Anyway, this week's service was awesome. I can really feel and experience e Holy Spirit flowing in e church..when it's the season for friends to come to God we all feel e same thing and do e same things..when it's e season to get back to basics we flow too. It's truly, truly what the bible says about rivers of living water..from the top to e bottom, Pastors to members, the river flows and courses the same very fascinating way. and with the church vision the beginnings of leadership and Pastor's teachings of Living, Learning and Leading, i can envision a future that in the end of this year, all of us would have really gone up a whole new level in faith, spiritual power, wisdom, stature, and with favour with God and men. I really can sense in the time to come,the future as it is will be incredible for this church, it's indescribrable in words. You've heared that a picture can paint a thousand words, but i think that not even a thousand pictures can paint e future what church is going to be. |
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