Hey.


update on my life..fax incoming..wwooot



okay that was random. haha.



Spiritual life is up :D
It's feels great to be back with God again. You know how it feels like when you've been away for years, not knowing if a certian friend is still angry at you, but when you come back the person's there, she smiles at you and everything great? Yeah :D

Living with God's like..living with dad. He's always there for me, but it's always my desicisions that really affect what's going to happen. Dad wants the best for me, but i've got to give him my best now so he can give me His best. same with God :)

And it's a great development to know God more as a friend. haha.


Work?
Well, i'm still working, and it's been pretty okay. Mum says i'm gg to train e new part timers and sth..dont get why michelle can't do that. she's been working for years, i've only worked one! Anyway, hope the new applicants turn out alright.

Church
Still brainstorming on the love project..should do something loving for our leaders and friends in church!

hey.


I'm blogging in e middle of vivo city. lols.

Testing out e wireless thing in uncle peter's laptop..




Okay. Sunday and saturday..service was quite good. The message on love was great, it relaly inspired me to love others with e love of Jesus and really go all out to express it. Pastor was almost raving about santana man! Pastors, Daniel and Ian went down to e concert as well. I think it was no coincidence..a really great night :) Even the WT was inspired to play a santana-style intermission song during offering!

I've got a plan: I'm gg to buy a cross for the friends i know, using e money i earn working.



It's gonna be expensive, but loving others in the 9 ways is what this life is truly about- i wanna learn how to love in all these ways all over again.






I think that in the case of shopping- shopping for the ones you love really makes the difference. it really encapsulates the experience of love in action into an item..


After what Pastor preached, i'm really inspired to take this up to a new level.





anyway. ineedsleep D:


BYE

teach me how to love like you do, God.

I need to slip less and spend time with Him more. goodness.


you know e feeling that sucks when you resolve bot to do something, and then 5 mins or 1 day later it happens? yeah. It's been happening over and over agn.



God changes me from the inside out

It sucks being sick.




Yesterday = most unlucky day ever

Couldnt sleep, 2 hours sleep.
Flu Symptoms
Drank Water and took panadol.
Puked.
Fever.
Bathed.
Slept with no sleep
Went hospital.
Waited damn long for my turn.
Went out to barker, tripped and sprained my leg.
Puked after dinner.
Went back home to rest.
Fever.
Couldnt sleep.
Puked.

Jeeeeez..I feel like i'm having stomach cramps and a total hangover..someone call me please

hey,

I just have alot of pressure blotted up inside my soul, and i really wna explode.






1) i cant stand working in a team where the team members have issues with each other.
2) i want a team which can work together and work hard for a great Godly cause.
3) i want to stop sinning so much and keep going higher in spirit.
4) i want to make quiet time really regular.





over the four things, i'm stressed out by the teamwork, and i have no idea how to solve it.


I'm sick and tired of myself being such a fool, of such an imperfect person to work together.p







I just wna stop all the coldness and nonsense and start living in peace agn.











I'm really fustrated, but i dont want to confront you

you know who you are





stop being cold please, and start working together


you're too distracted in your work, i think you've forgotten the presence of God


I think you've forgotten that people aren't perfect and as effiecient, or Godly as you, and i think you've forgotten that every person has his/her flaws.






WAKE, THE HELL UP TO THE REALITY THAT THE WORLD IS JUST NOT PERFECT FOR YOU


now, just stop being cold, GET IT?!


I want to live peacefully

I've set aside my problems and differences with you

I'm ready to start again


AND YOU HAVE TO JUST FRICKIN IGNORE, PUSH ASIDE MY EFFORTS TO TRY TO AT LEAST RESTORE SOMETHING WORTH FIGHTING FOR IN OUR GROUP



Please, Please, please just stop being like that.



I dont hate you, i despise and really think your coldness and holier than thou attitude sucks worse than shit.







JUST DONT BE COLD GET IT?










freaking, freaking fustrated and ravaging for the first time in a long time.











I feel like chopping off heads with a machete. dammit!






hiya.

Some choose to study.
Some choose to slack.

Some choose to fall in love and devote thier best years of their lives to their interests,
or to each other

Some think that fighting is the way

Others think philosophy and peace is the way

Some choose to seek other religions and cults,

others choose to seek strength in themselves.


Some choose to be doctors, lawyers, engineers,


Some choose to be reporters and cameramen,







Some choose to be the best they can.




I choose to live for Jesus.





Because inside, beyond personal benefit, i know that obeying God is the best thing to do so that i can live the great destiny He has for me.


I wna be His priest and pastor,

His worshipper and warrior.



What do you wanna be?

Hey!



I'm gg to post abt my life. It's been so great man, 100% thanks to God!


Well, i'm out of barker road and frankly, it feels different. i've grown on the place and i really feel i wanna be there again, studying at another level.

Miss the teachers, e enviroment and the school..Mr Ng, everyone.

It's been some time.


Well, as they say, once an acsian, always an acsian.





Cny has been quite cool..everyone's making noise about my hair since it's dyed. lols. Visited alot of people, including my grand uncle and John Lau, One of my dad's friends.


His place is the best i tell you. Imagine with me, White marble floor, a smooth wooden look, comfy sofa and clean house, airy, open doors with water just outside, plus a garden beyond. The best, wireless speakers with a great collection of jazz music and hits?




I've fallen in love with his place man. Wouldn't mind living there!


After hanging out at John's place we went over to Peck Ming's office in the Buisness times..man, i've got to show you guys a picture of this guy's table. It's messy to the full, you won't be able to imagine how full it is. Toured around..it pretty much looks the same like the rest of the SPH offices. Feels homely. Almost wouldnt mind working there in attatchment, it seems fun along with the work and stress :)

Winnie fetched me down to clementi..took mrt to church for the reunion dinner. it was quite cool! met up with D2&4..Shot a few pool balls with Da Wei and Rach, helped CO and the army guys around with sth. Dinner was cool, but packed. It was great fellowship man, i'd remember the orange eating contest anyday.



I'm gna end off here i think. Feel like hitting Photoshop and making a blogskin.




"Mentally Challenging, CNY. Only the superhuman are not sick, tired and full after the whole ordeal." -Billy Zheng.



Don't you just love creative juices?






I'll post agn tml. got some inspiration going

Free

I'm feeling feel fine
'cos there's nothing that I want to change
I'm right on time
for the atmosphere to rearrange
'Cos I've got wings so watch me fly

And I'm free to be the man You want me to be
I'm alive when I'm alive in You
And I'm free to be the one You said I could be
I'm alive 'cos You're alive, I'm alive when I'm alive in You

Lord, you’ve let me see
I need strength to let You carry me
And love was right on time
When faith and hope were on the line
And I've got wings so watch me fly

And I'm free to be the man You want me to be
I'm alive when I'm alive in You
And I’m free to be the one You dreamt I could be
I’m alive ‘cos You’re alive, I’m alive ‘cos You’re alive
I’m alive ‘cos You’re alive in me

You’re all I ever want
You’re all I ever need
It’s all I ever want
To be free

Free to be the one You want me to be
I'm alive when I'm alive in You
And I’m free to be the one You dreamt I could be
Free
I'm alive in You

wow,


Zone meeting and services have been really awesome.

Even thou i k.oed on one session..I feel that God really spoke into my life and told me it's gg to be another round of surrender before I go up to levels like these.

Another round of surrender?

no i cant.

Can't is not a word in my vocabulary anymore.




I think that it's better, His will be done than mine.




I'm not content living my own life.






I'll never be content living my life now.






I'm at this stage where i'm saying, God, God, I want more of You.


I knw that i'll never be satisfied.


But i want more and i'll do whatever it takes.




The spiritual hunger and that real genuine presence of God, It just reminds me to keep surrendering bit by bit.








God is amazing.

I know God loves me.



Morethan i know. (:



Only one way to see it!

Chinese new year.




A tradition?





I see it as a chance to reach out.