I just really am in a limbo of emotions.

I'm tired but i cant sleep.

I'm worried but comforted.

I'm happy and sad.

I feel really sian about school tomorrow,


But it's just one thing that's really standing out and it's really pushing me on: It's that Innova Junior College is not just another place where i will study; It's where i can be a light to people. It's where i can finally say to Jesus, this is where i want to be your light.

What spurs me on is the sight that one day innovians beside me will be in Heart of God church raising their hands and lifting Jesus.

Even though i'm in for the first six weeks, I'm going to make the best of the best of it i've ever made of time in my life..

I'm gonna go in there and bring people in.


It hurts, it sucks and i dont like it in there.




But God showed me the way.



"Who will i send? Who will go for me? To the ends of the earth, who will rise up for their King?"

& This is the absolute cry of my heart from the inside out:

"Here I am Lord, send me. Lord, where You go or whatever You command I will follow, even to the ends of the earth. To my death will i go, to the deepest place or the highest mountian, to the best and worst places in existence. I will go for You becuase you are my Lord, you died for me, you forgave me, you showed me the way, you blessed me, you suffered for me."


Just say the word Lord, say the word..


That's just what i want

I dont want peace

I dont want rest

I dont want money

I dont want a girlfriend

I dont want glory

I dont care what others say or think

I dont care what i go through or what JC or poly or workplace i go



At the end of the road

I just want to see that i've done everything i can do for others


and that everyone i see


is saved in the arms of my Father God Jesus


I want to serve my King

I want to worship Him


I want to hear Him say at the end of every day, "Hey Billy, you did it. You ran the race you kept the faith, you fought the good fight. Well done my good and faithful servant."


and i just want to hear six words from my loving God..