I had enough with myself





These battles inside my own head are destroying my state of mind, I'm becoming nothing more than a hinderance to people, a piece of meat bent on 'serving' with a tired, weak stupid attitude.


Since when did i become so mindless?






I hate, and love myself, Because i've come this far, because ive screwed up so many things, because i'm too emotional, becuase i'm too siao, because i'm socially inept.



I wld just scream out to the world. Just why, why was i made socially crazy?










I hate and love people, I detest, yet im attracted to them. There's this thin line that really stands between love and hate


And recently it's been going down to hate and really tearing my melancholy eyes into pieces



I cant Sleep

I've been eating more

I've been taking out my stress on the comp

It's because of myself?




Everything was going so well until i stepped in

D2 in itself.




I dont know.










shit. I need to stop thiking like this. God please help. help.
I need to be less voliatile.

I know God is there.
I know He can change me.
I know that this can be resolved.


I need to watch it.



Is it going back in itself? I'm becoming emotional agn



I wld just love to say i'm defeated and lie dead and finish the race right now