im facing problems but i'm pulling up my socks. (:

why cant people just get along


love your neighbour as yourself



its just that simple,


why do we have to make such a big big big big big issue over everything?!?!

I have so much thoughts buzzing around in my mind i really need to lay them off here!





VBS was a life changing experience, And i think it's something really, really incredible that has unlocked unopened doors in the spiritual realm.



It's amazing to hear and see so much spiritual knowledge and gain so much revelations in many aspects of Christ and Christianity, And it's even more amazing to see and feel that my relationship with God and Church's spiritual level has really increased drastically. The presence of God is really there and i can really sense the true Heart of God residing in. It's fascinating beyond any thoughts i think or things i hear.



Pastor How prayed for the whole church to have a fathers heart.



A heart to make a difference.





I'm going to pass it on man. <3

There's just alot of stuff i need to get out of my system!

Its just these few days

I feel like pouring out my heart but its stuck. I dont realy feel the presence of God that much and its such an ache..


Everyday is a battle with myself, my feelings and emotions

and it feels so tiring to just push against myself

One side of me is just thinking

The other believing.


Doubts are just cast so heavily into my mind and soul and it just is a battle and a hard vicious fight against myself!

And i'm not sure how to think or say anything anymore

I would stand up and say Jesus is changing me but its different


I dont know anymore!


There's alot of things and her


Everyday i just see her and it's a tough battle

Friends and closer

But its just a wanting and somebody i can't have

A longing that i'm really aching for and really wanting love and maybe that little, Hey, we've got so much in common or hey, i kinda like you

But i know that people are depending on me and i need to help my church

I know that i have a destiny in God

I struggle with myself every day and every day is a battle either won or lost
and it seems it's no movement


It's a weary stalemate.



It's just that i really feel tired of fighting



but one thing i know is that God's gonna help me and give me strength

I feel so sleepy and tired but God sees.

And sees.

1 fondest memory you have in your lifetime.

When i stood at the crossroads of my life, and i decided to accept Jesus into my life.

2 people you'd like to thank.

Jesus for Dying on the Cross
Pastor for showing the way

3 things you would want to do now.

sleep
eat
go vbs

4 people that left the deepest impression (include reason why.)

Jesus: He affected, changed my entire life and gave me salvation and a new path FREE OF CHARGE.

Pastor : Given me teaching, guidance and wisdom througout my time at heart of God church

Ongah: For being insanely weird

Pastor Kong Hee: For being the leader of one of the greatest churches in the world and have him sit 2 seats away from me and preach right in front of me a great and sensible message that changed my thinking.

5 photos/ pictures that you like.




6 strange things you've done in your life

Scream for no apparent reason
Whacked Ian Yap's Chest in the middle of History Class
Burnt my Hair intentionally
Tried to make myself puke
Shave my nails with a razor
sleep 29 hours

7 things that you like in 2007.
I started the year in the presence of God.
I grew in God!
I met D2. YAY
O levels are over
I got guitar lesson! woooooo
Facebook
God

8 things you want to do in 2008.
Lose weight
Serve more
Learn Acoustic Guitar
Read the bible more!
fellowship more
EAT 3 PC CHICKEN
grow long hair
Dye it red
run to church

Zone camp was amazing. Dom was preaching a sermon about others can, I cannot, choosing the long paths with God instead of personal glory and it just blew me completely away.


I'll post the rest of the zone camp details later but, revival night! it was crazy and i would even admit the turning point of my life.

I believe that God has been telling me that something amazing's gonna happen for these few months inside of me..and that my life is gonna be changed again. It happened! After Dom finished the sermon and he had the altar call i was just so inspired and spiritually touched and ached for the others can i cannot road i went up.

Although I didn't get prayed for, this is what happened:

As i was standing there worshipping God, a CGL came around our area and prayed really fast. I didn't even hear what she prayed and she didn't even pray for me, but i cld feel God's power radiating frm her and i just fell under God's power hard. It was like nothing i've ever felt before. I just fell flat on the ground and spoke in tongues for so long.

God started telling me about the times where i could have been something for him, take the others can but i cannot road, but i didn't and went on.




In sec 3, i could have given up the leadership role in publications to be a leader in church, but I DIDNT!

In dec 2006, i could have served in ministry and said NO to the rest of the enjoyment, but i decided to choose short term enjoyment!

I could have gone for VBS and grew better, but i decided to choose my publications.

I could have gone for SOW and be the worship leader i always wanted to be, but i decided to choose my publications.

In may, i could have seen the vision for 2007 but i didn't. I decided to choose my friends.


And God told me i could take the road if i wanted to again and he's giving me an opportunity to do so here and now!

I was standing at the crossroads of my life and on that day i felt so scared. So scared and so alone. Hw cld i give up a great future i've planned out and my dad and mum have paid for, sweated for, killed for?

I always wanted to Go mass comm, but somewhere inside i thought that maybe it was wrong? But it was my hope and dream, my idea and love and future.

I always wanted to be an electric guitarist and a rocker, and learn the techniques of Jimi Hendrix and John mayer and play it for God.

I always wanted to have a future in buisness with my dad, in the buisness sector and in 37 Degrees.

I have been struggling really hard with Sin and it seemed very tempting to go back into it after for fighting so long.


God told me to give up EVERYTHING.



So that day i decided..no compromise..i surrender all.


There it went, and i said:


God, I surrender

My Future education in mass comm
My future in buisness with my dad and mum
My electric guitar
My future as the heir of 37 Degrees
My daily sin and past sin i've committed for the past years
My life from now onwards

I shall walk the narrow way with you

I shall surrender all to you

You know best, You are God, i'm not, and I love you, Worship you, and surrender all to you.




It was extremely difficult esp the first and last one because i really shaped my school life and my dad sorted out everything for me in the future..

I didn't want to move away from the dream i had set for myself..but it was then that God reminded me how many times i could have been something but i chose the other way..and i can try the others can, i cannot.

So i did it! It's gone out the window.



I had two very distinct visions..one being a worship leader in acoustic guitar, as well as a leader, and the second one being a Christian worker in my school, counselling, praying, evangelising and helping both students and teachers alike..

and God told me it's about giving up dreams is to live a greater predestined future.


Being a Christian Worker..


In ACSBR, since the 1980s much of the christian fire was lost..

and i really wanted to change it..and God sent me on a mission to relight it's fire during pastor joakim's seminar and gave me a vision of what i was doing two days ago.

and what i saw was something incredible and amazing. I was in the school church after chapel and i was sharing..my testimony and a bit of the word..and i was also praying very hard for a breakthrough in families for several boys in school uniform.

I really think God has brought me to acs for 10 years for a reason..

So many times Acs's name has been tarnished and called Christian Hypocrites..

But i'm sure that it can be broken and there really can be a generation of knights for God again..there was a great revival in the 1960's but it was lost..i'm out to start it again FOR GOD.


And God also told me that he wants me to be a worship leader in acoustic guitar..and i saw it happen again. A vision..a long stage with alot of singers..and an image of me leading worship like omega.


And God showed me a last vision

There were roads all over the place

there were people on those roads walking, highways, roads, alleys, and suddenly a straight, small narrow road in front of me illuminates. It's a straight road and simple, rough, going through the desert in a long way. and God said to me..

Walk the narrow way with me, Son.



And there i just recommitted everything to Jesus and decided to do it, and i surrendered my future, as hard as it was, to him.

And it was just an amazing load off my back.

And woah..it was so powerful i started crying and speaking in tongues over and over..and i didnt stop until service ended.



That day i promised and promised God, Never again will i stray away

I may have gone here and there

Played church

Been not serious

Slipped many times


BUT MY RESOLVE HAS NEVER BEEN STRONGER


AND I WILL SURRENDER ALL TO YOU!




simply amazing.







I rise with you in the wake of the morning
And I walk with you in the cool of the night
And every single day
I'm devoted to your ways,
Only yours,
Only yours.

And I surrender all to you
And I surrender all to you
And I surrender all to you
And I surrender all to you

I rise with you in the wake of the morning
I walk with you in the cool of the night
And every single day
I'm devoted to your ways,
Only yours,
Only yours.

And I surrender all to you
And I surrender all to you
And I surrender all to you
And I surrender all to you


When I'm weak
You are Strong
You're my feet when i cant move on
You are the light in the dark
You are the whisper inside my heart


I'm all for you
I'm all for you
I'm all for you
I'm all for you




And I surrender all to you.