O levels, o levels

I'm going to beat you down, i'm going to whack you up. I'm getting the max i can do for everything. As a man thinks in his heart, so is he. I think you're a grasshopper, i'm going to crush you.



Olevels is nothing (:



lv,
Billy

I need to get cs lewis's books soon. >=(

I'm at pacific coffee, supposed to be studying but well the alluring draw of the computer is beckoning me to post something.



Hi.




Okay. Bck to work.

lv,
Billy

I just realised how it's like to walk humbly with the King of Kings. <3

Hey guys.

Just had a really spiritual experience..


Went down to collect my specs after tution. Dad dropped me off because he needed to go for a meeting, thou he told me to take bus the whole road was blocked so i walked.

So then guess what? I came across my old primary school block.

It's nothing much now, an old place, dusty, unused and simple. but what really hit me was the memories when i was young. How i used to be so simple. I saw in that dusty place memories of boys running to their mothers and fathers and maids after school..i remembered the time where i was so simple in nature.

I remember the time where i first touched Jesus in knowledge, though i didn't know what i was doing.


And i remember walking home the way through balestier road with several maids in different ages, (Malani, Anik, Alice. Still remember their names (: ) and how i used to be so little and simple..how i used to play around.

And when i crossed the road into the place where me and my maid usually walked through, holding her hand, the narrow way inside one of the hdb flats, i really felt what it was like to be simple and small again.

And i was listening to my ipod, and came the song..

"Take off my shoes, I'm coming in,
Untie this rope, I'm staying with him.
Love of my life, I'll live and die
Just for the moment for my King and I."

And i just walked slowly and i really enjoyed the presence of God.

It was like i was walking with him again down the old road home

Hand in hand, a little boy.


And then i came home and went through the normal places..1 Thomson road, the overhead bridge, past the BP (now spc) station..and i felt like it was as if Jesus was walking me home all the way like my maid did.

And you know, i just felt so strongly that Jesus was telling me that i've walked the narrow road before.

And i can walk it with him again because he'll lead me home.


And as i approached my front gate, i couldn't help but place my hand on the door and rest it there

And just savour the moment before i went in.


Indeed, It's take off my shoes, i'm coming in..







And i just felt like smiling like a little boy again. (:




I’ll take off my shoes, I’m coming in,
Untie this rope, I’m staying with him,
Love of my life, I’ll live and die,
Just for the moments for my king and I.

Why did you call, why did you wait,
For someone so guilty, someone so fake.
There are no words for my beautiful song,
Now I’m in the arms of my beautiful one.

Hold me, blow all the pride from my bones,
With your fire.
Hold me, breathe on this heart made of stone,
Keep it pure.
Hold me, saviour of heaven and earth,
King forever.
Hold me, love of my life lead me on,
Through the fire, lead me on...

I’ll take off this crown and fall at your feet,
The secret of joy are the moments we meet.
How could a man with all of your fame,
Pull me from darkness and call me by name.

So hold me today, as I carry your cross,
Into the desert to find who is lost.
Look at my hands, they’re still full of faith,
God keep them clean till we finish the race.


Hold me, blow all the pride from my bones,
With your fire.
Hold me, breathe on this heart made of stone,
Keep it pure.
Hold me, saviour of heaven and earth,
King forever.
Hold me, love of my life lead me on,
Through the fire, lead me on...


Hold me, love of my life lead me on,
Through the fire, lead me on...

thinking about stuff after olevels.


I need to go out exploring singapore for once man, lol. Planning to visit places i've never been before like hougang, pasir ris, queenstown and sth. Trying to find a place where i can watch free music performances but no luck so far? ):

I'd love to head to Jazz at southbridge but it's a restraunt and a bar..i'd look like a freak man. lols.

Where's the Jazz bands when you need them? D:

Billy needs a study break ><

roar!

As a man thinks in his heart; So is he.


I'm gonna improve no matter what. All things work well for those who love Him;

I'm going to love Him like never before,
I'm going to do things like never before,
I'm going to change myself like never before,
I'm going to move like never before,
I'm going to pray like never before,
I'm going to live for Jesus like I have never had before.

Jesus always gives another chance Billy, Another chance.


I'm not going to take this chance for granted.

There's always time to try again; We fail to pass.

Turned off tagboard. Don't need people to tell me anything anymore.

Turned off music. Don't need to have music to lift the Gospel higher.



Billy, I am so mad at you.

I'm mad because of the lies you had all day.

On november 1, you gave your heart to Jesus.

On november 1, you SINNED.

You commited yourself to Jesus Christ
You commited yourself to the LORD
YOU SAID YOU WANTED TO DO MINISTRY

and what are you doing Billy Zheng

You're falling into sin, you're making hell for leaders above you

You're freaking out new people and you're making people around you go crazy

What's your problem? Why can't you sit down and STUDY?
Why can't you do something useful
WHY DO YOU HAVE TO SIT AT THE COMPUTER
OR WATCH TV
OR TALK ONLINE

Why do you have to make things so difficult for others

Can't you just be nicer
Can't you just be more tired
Can't you just wake up and do something good
Can't you be more fun
Can't you be serious in your work
Can't you LOVE GOD MORE?!

WHAT IS YOUR PROBLEM!?


I hate you Billy, because you screwed up so many things. You screwed up people's moments, you made life difficult.

YOU MIGHT AS WELL JUST HIDE IN A HOLE FOR DECADES

AND NOT COME OUT

YOU CAN HIDE THERE

AND 'RECONCILE' WITH GOD

but you'll sin again and again



What's wrong with you Billy?

Can't you love God more?
Can't you be a disciplined son?




Can't you make others happy for once?



I'm not going to sign off yours sincerely or love

Because i can't be bothered to sign and i don't love you


-Billy

PS:
You did a horrible Job

Maybe you should look above
By Billy

Maybe i've fallen to far
Maybe i've made things so damn darn
Hard to do
Hard to choose
Well is it too late?

Maybe things should be all made
Better for all those who take
Life as hard
As a stone
An impossible task?


Maybe you should look above and see
What He wants you to be
It's nothing much He will ask
But if you follow his task

Things will break through and will be
Something you'd never imagine to see
In your lifetime, A miracle made for you to be
Look above and see


Well things ain't so hard as they are
If you slow down and mark
The pace you're moving,
what you're knowing
where you're going

Things can work if you
Take a step or two
Making problems simple stuff
Making life not so tough


Maybe you should look above and see
What He wants you to be
It's nothing much He will ask
But if you follow his task

Things will break through and be
Something you'd never imagine to see
In your lifetime, A miracle made for you to be
Look above and see


A miracle made for you to be,
Look above and see!

A miracle made for you to be,
Look above and see!

"My Son, My Son, This is part of my plan. Calm your heart and Calm your mind. You may not understand now, They may not love Me, but I love them. They may not believe in me, but I believe in them. "

Woah, this is going to be one of my first depressing blog posts in a long time. I'm probrably going to look back and scold myself for being such an idiot, and delete everything. Whatever.



You know? I just want to ask what happened!

What happened to the people who were so God-loving and fanatical? Radical for Jesus? What happened to the people who responded to the altar calls and declared their love for Jesus? What happened to the people who walked by faith and not by sight? What happened to the fun loving dudes and dudettes they were? What on earth happened to those people who listened to the Holy Spirit, the Word of God and others?

What happened to the love for God?

Looking at them then and now, What were they doing before they went horribly wrong?




God,

Why must they fall?

You brought them here with your love and kindness

You brought them here thru your servants

You brought them here through us, your hands and feet

They came, they saw You, they loved You, they touched You.

And i thought, "YES! another soul saved for you Lord;"

But why must they fall again

And this time deeper in that pit of nonsense.

And this time so deep it penetrates the darker sides of human morals and society?






God,

I love you

They loved you!

Why must they fall?