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/ 9/27/2007 12:50:00 PM
Thursday, September 27, 2007
I NEED A BREAK D:
1.Ever been given an engagement ring? Nope! 2.Last gift you received? Keychains from Joshua Poh :D 3.Ever dropped a cellphone? Duh! 4.One favourite song? Hosanna by Hillsongs. 5.Things you spend a lot of money on? Church, Food. Buildingfund! :D 6.Last food you ate? Raisin-embedded scones. 7.First thing you notice about the opposite sex? Hair. 8.Primary school you attended? Anglo-Chinese Primary School. 9.Secondary school you attended?Any regrets? Anglo-Chinese School (Barker Road). How can i regret enjoying retarded fun! :D 10.Cell phone service provider? Starhub 11.Favourite place to shop? I Shop weird. Samuel & Kevin, LP Zone, Mu-ee. 12.Longest job you had? Cashier at my dad's shop. 13.Do you own a pair of dice? think so? 14.Do you prank call people? Nope. Thats mean! 15.Last wedding you attended? Uncle Chris & Auntie Anita's wedding. 16.First friend you called if you won the lottery? Gerald Ong. WAHA! 17.Favourite fast food restaurant? It's a strike Balance between KFC and Burger King. 18.Biggest lie you ever heard? Love is an illusion, Love is bullshit, Love doesn't last. (By me, arnd 20 mths ago, believe it or not. ) 19.Where's your favourite place to eat with friends? So far? Paya Lebar Kopitiam. The zone tends to end up there after service every week! 20.Can you cook? Yup. Fried Rice, Wanton mee, Mapo Tofu, Quite a variety. 21.Best kisser? Haven't kissed before. 22.Last time you cried? When I went Berserk on my mum. Another really spiritual experience. I'll keep it to myself..for now. 23.Most disliked food? Squid. Yucks! 24.About yourself? I'm a strawberry :D I love God, I love Heart of God church, love people, love life. Love family, friends, guitar, facebook and this wonderful dessert called Penna Cotta. I WANT NOW! 25.Thing you dislike most about yourself? The fact that i'm still struggling hard with temptation, and that i get angry almost every day. 26.Longest shift you worked in your life? 24 hours. It sucked! 27.Favourite movie? Freedom Writers, The last samurai..200 Pound Beauty? That's all i can think of. 28.Can you sing? A bit. Some lead and some background? 29.One thing you never leave your house without? Handphone, Ipod, Wallet, Slippers, Clothes, Bag. 30.Last concert you attended? Red Rain! WOOHOO! 31.Last movie you rented? Dont rent movies my friend. 32.Favourite vacation spot? Dont know. China or Israel? 33.Laptop or desktop computer? Desktop right now. I-NEED-MAC 34.Do you like your hair? No. oh my goodness. My back hair sucks! D:! I want to dye! DYE! GRAHHH!HNI#OQNTO@_r9u-012!~ 35.Do you smoke? No. 36.Sleep with or without clothes? With lah. aiyoh. 37.Who shares room with you? Everyone. Save money. 38.Do long distance relationships work? Maybe? 39.Pancakes or doughnuts? No idea. 40.Do you like hot chocolate? Its okay. 41.How do you like your eggs? Depends on the meal- Scrambled, poached, sunny-side. almost everything exept boiled and raw! HAH! 42.Do you believe in astrology? Nah 43.Last person you talked to on the phone? Mum. 44.Last person on your missed call list? Edmund 45.What was the last text message you received? From Kaykay! :D 47.What are you wearing right now? Black tee (Everyone is entitled to my opinion) and blue shorts. 48.Pick a lyric: As the Glory of Your presence now fills this place, In worship we will meet you face to face. There is nothing in this world that you can be compared, Glory on Glory, Praise upon Praise. 49.What kind of jelly would you like on your PB & J? huh? 50.Are you normally a happy person? Not really. Swings. lol 51.Name of your first pet? A parakeet, saved from a cat. We set it free a few days after. 52.Favourite ice cream? no preference 53.Do you like maps? they're okay. 54.Tell me a random fact about yourself I live for Jesus. 55.Ever attended a birthday party? HAHA YAH! 56.What is your favourite season? Blue Skies and long hot summer days! 57.Last time you laughed at something stupid? School. One of austin and Bentay's thing about the tuning fork..LOL 58.What time did you wake up this morning? 10 59.Best thing about winter? WE HAVE NO WINTER!D: 60.Last time a cop gave you a ticket? I dont drive. |
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/ 9/26/2007 11:10:00 PM
Wednesday, September 26, 2007
The Loner, never alone.
By Billy Zheng. he gets up from Bed, Alone. his family nothing more than shards of glass strewn across a bar table; A relic from a war years past. he sits at the table, in deep contemplation, Alone. his tears are his daily bread. he walks down the street Behind time and space he walks in the shadow of the people laughing and rejoicing, Alone. his friends are the leaves rustling in the wind. he drags himself to school, Alone. he hesitates, and beholds A horror house, a torture chamber, Yet his mother's sweat, blood and tears, push him on, her sacrifice moving. His greatest fear, his only hope. he sees his class nothing more than a ghost, he slinks to his corner Alone. No one sees him, no one looks. Through a cheer and a whoop, he does not lift his head. his weary burden, yet his only vision. he passes by his crush, Alone. A girl he'd seen and known once. A beauty outside and inside; The manifestation of compassion, Once she touches his head and asks if he's okay. Now she's a fleeting wind, carried by the thunder; The real men of school. his love now nothing more than a dream eaten by the handsome. School's ended, a year passes, he still walks down the street, Alone. Education has ended, textbooks burned? Where to? he does not know. he looks back at his house, his school, his class, his love; he falls to his knees cries an unheared cry bowing down prostrate pushed by his emotions Anger, Hate , Love, Sadness Regret. Lonliness. Passing by everything he finds nothing, No one sees his plight, his inner burden his tiredness, his cry. he turns a corner Alone. and he ends up in a street he never knew was here, A small house, a tiny church. A father standing outside, looking out into the sky, as if the sky were speaking and he was it's audience. The man sees him, captivated. He moves with uncertanity, then haste; he is scared, he is petrified, it's all the same these people come and run; they knock me down, he thinks. But the man runs and embraces him. his breath runs out of him his mind shocked his eyes shaken with tears the moment captured for eternity. He is loved. He is loved. He gets up from bed and He is loved. |
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/ 9/26/2007 09:43:00 PM
HERE I AM SEND ME Show me a vision like Isaiah saw, Where the angel touched his lips and he sinned no more. Let me hear your voice saying “Who shall I send?” I’ll say send me Lord, I’ll follow you to the end. Show me a vision like Eziekel saw, An army of light from a valley of bones. Breathe life into these lungs of mine, So I can scream and shout of your love divine. Search light, burns bright, floods my eyes, Invade me, serenade me, I’m giving back my life. Here I am send me, Here I am send me, There’s nothing in my hands, But here I am send me. I’m in Jacobs dream seeing heavens gate, Let me climb all night on my ladder of faith. Wrestle with the angel till my body is weak, Dislocate my bones for it’s you that I seek. Show me the light Paul apostle saw, When he fell to the dust and he could see no more, Open my eyes, open my eyes, Open my eyes, open my eyes. I’m frightened what you’ll find, When you open up my heart, I’m walking in the light, Cos it’s light that changes the atmosphere, So touch these lips that criticise, And put a song in my mouth that opens our eyes. Here I am send me, Here I am send me, There’s nothing in my hands, But here I am send me. |
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/ 9/26/2007 06:39:00 PM
Heyhey guys.
Well anyway, just to give you a better in depth thing of what i've been through these few days! forget about that last part, i was slightly siao. (or drunk. so says kay? lols!) Allright. On Saturday, We had Uncle Chris's Wedding lunch. Pretty good i must say, it was Italian, alot of unique stuff and really great drinks. Cousins were there, so were other uncles and Auntie Audrey. Went over to church after that, met up with Valerie and the Pasir Ris Sec people. Went up for service, it was pretty great! It's really wonderful to see Pastor Joakim again; seems like ages since he was here. Great sermon on walking the narrow road- something that God has been talking to me about for a really long time, and something that i've been trying to walk and get into, than fall in temptation. It ended off really powerfully! Haha. Anyway, I was really impacted by the sermon and well, gotta say, i'm determined to change for the better even more. One move up is great, but moving up multiple levels in spiritual, physical and mental levels is something i want to get at for God. After service, had follow up with Clarence. Talked about my strongholds and problematic habits; mostly the seemingly unconquerable sin. I figured mine was still Anger, and we both prayed for the stronghold. Well, not suprisingly, It had me again this week, but as Clarence said, It may not be tomorrow, or overnight. Not even in a month or a year, but one day, that stronghold would be brought down like the walls of Jericho- After days of marching. Well, i'm believing it'll change, and i'm putting what my God & heart tells me to do in my life and applying what Pastors talked about for the past few services. One thing that really stood out is that God's been assuring me alot recently..Telling me not to fear, telling me that He is with me. I can't help but get the feeling that it's linked to the old testament- the line of kings and specifically Joshua. I'm not sure, i'm going to try and look into that.I'm really glad that i went for that service- it was really appropriate and the follow up sealed it off. Really amazing man! After that, went down to buy dinner. Had din with Clarence, Zhilin, Qianqian and Muying in the alfresco area. Went off about ten? Went home with Kristopher, Valerie Tock, Alastiar, and guess who? Chloe! :D It was a pleasant suprise seeing her again in church! lols. Anyway, Just really updated on where i'm standing spiritually, physically and mentally. There's so much for me to improve and i'm gonna move on for that! That's it for today guys! OH GUESS WHAT! I FOUND PASTOR JOAKIM'S FACEBOOK :DDDDD!!!!! |
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/ 9/25/2007 12:38:00 AM
Tuesday, September 25, 2007
Hello.
Yes. Hello. Golly. Things are going great, there's nothing much to post about! Billy is thinking of getting married !:O HAHA. forget what i said, i'm drunk. anyway. Billy is suddenly feeling poetic. The Girl of my dreams. The girl of my dreams? A happy-go-lucky, Yet, a thinker, a serious yet crazy one. Someone who always, always loves to chat; but who just loves, and loves and loves retarded fun. :D On a more serious note, Someone who has an open heart; Someone with unique, imperfect character. Someone loving, understanding, ready to go all the way with you. Someone who takes time off every day & spends some time with you. Someone who's there whenever you need her, a listener, a confidant, a friend. Someone who takes things appropriately when the time is right. Someone who doesn't judge a person from the outside or at first look. Girl of my dreams? She knows when you're happy. She knows when you're sad. She rests her head on your shoulder; Someone who doesn't cry so hard, Yet someone who needs a friend to wipe some tears away and to cheer her up. Someone not really expectant, or someone who looks for money. Just an ordinary girl with an extraordinary heart&soul. Someone who's just so, so sincere in love. |
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/ 9/22/2007 11:37:00 PM
Saturday, September 22, 2007
woohoooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo.
Pastor Joakim was great lorz. So koolz kanz. lorls. Yucks. I simply, simply hate people who ruin the art of typing proper english. Disgusting. Bleh. Stupid. whatver. Sermon was cool! had follow up after that, really powerful. Went home with Val Tock, Alastiar, Krisfu and Chloeeeeee. Yes yes Chloe, If you're reading this i'll start talking. ahhhhhhhhh okayDamn tired now going to do work ahh. shiatzabut. |
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/ 9/17/2007 05:40:00 PM
Monday, September 17, 2007
"Sing to him a new song; play skillfully, and shout for joy" (Ps 33:3)
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/ 9/17/2007 06:13:00 AM
Higher than your Protest signs and Dollar signs,
Your love is all we Need. Hey now, Fill our hearts with Your compassion. Hey now, as we hold to our confession: Wo-a-oh! God be the Solution! Wo-a-oh! We will be Your hands and be Your feet! ! |
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/ 9/15/2007 11:58:00 AM
Saturday, September 15, 2007
Just gonna post some of my really incredible experiences here.
On the zone worship session; (That's what inspired me to create the spiritual journal btw (:) In the middle of worship, i really asked God for correction and direction in my ways. Clarence and lynette came to pray for me..Clarence told me that God's there and he loves me, all i need to do is to love him back more and continue loving him..Lynette came over and prayed for me; she commited my mind to the lord and told me that the blood of Jesus is over my life..and Satan's no longer in me. What i realised after the whole thing is that sometimes we dont even know we're in sin or we're really in trouble. Sometimes we need to look back and look front, and also look for direction in leaders and in God as well. Sometimes we just need to sit down and think: How much do I love God? How often am I praying? How often am i spending time with him? Sometimes we need to spend time with God like a father- see him every day, love him every day, talk to him and spend time with him every day. Sometimes we need to ask God for a new heart and new ways. "Create in me, a New heart One that follows you Place in me a deep desire To know you as i'm known." On thursday; Listened to Pastor Phil Pringle's sermon on higher prayer..it's very, very very intresting, thought alot about it. The intresting thing was that at the end there was half-worship..so i joined it and really prayed in the spirit for really long..so in the middle, i had a very intresting idea of what we should do every day. We should try to spend time with him and really pray in english and in tongues, pushing ourselves 5 mins more, just 5 mins more every day, not to be scared of what other people think or say, but just concentrate on God. Also Just thought that we ought to spend more time praying for others and thanking Jesus for the things he has done..even in bad times! something like what Job did when he was cursed and afflicted by satan. I think that what we gotta do sometimes is to just sit down in the morning and pray for ten minutes or so, thanking Jesus the moment we wake and praying for the days events, and praying at night, and seeking forgivness for the stumbles we've made in sin, and for a better heart and mind day by day. Most importantly- maintian that prayer and pray even harder in the midst of tough times- thanking Him not only for training in these things but for deliverance in previous incidents of chaos. "Show me how to live teach me in your ways so i can walk with You all my days." That's it for today guys (: Love, Billy |
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/ 9/14/2007 02:06:00 PM
Friday, September 14, 2007
Helo.
Its time to start my spiritual journal. yay. Anyway, just taking stock of my life. -Billy 22 months ago- sup guys. well yesterday was kinda funny, I had tution at rodriguez..I did litrature with two other partners..Pamela and Leanne, the're quite quiet though. I guess that's just girls. well, nothing eventful happened..though like pamela blushed a bit for some reason, I don't know why. then, I had tution for maths, which was quite intresting, I learnt more stff abt indices..quite uneventful. Oh yeah, I smsed joanne. I don't know why is it that SHE continues to pursue the issue, Cause looking back and bearing a grudge without telling a reason is just, plain stupid. well, I smsed back abt the THING that SHE had to jolly well BRING UP AGAIN.."okay, if she wants to continue to be like that, I don't give a damn. I will go on, helping you and others with or without her. Very well, SHE wants to pursue the issue and not forgive and forget. I think that getting angry by looking back is stupid. Is SHE hates me, I WILL HATE HER BACK! SHE WANTS WAR, SHE HAS THAT STUPID COLD WAR OF HERS. I DON'T CARE, I HAVE MY LIFE AND YOU HAVE YOURS, AND I HAVE BETTER THINGS TO DO THAN TALK OR HELP TO SOMEONE WHO WON'T TALK, LISTEN, AND IS BLINDED BY HER OWN FOOLISH, INFLEXIBLE DOCTRINE." As siyin said to me, "I will still rock on, with or without her." Believe it or not! --------------------------------------------------- -Billy 20 months ago- Life sucks. I'm at the ultimate epitome of my sianness. Guess how much I got for my a-maths? 15/100. That's Fifteen freaking marks out of 100 freaking marks. How freaking bad can it get? Seriously. and If that's not bad enough, guess how much I got for lit? 9/15. I'm seriously dropping..and Chem? 20/30. It's FREAKING LIKE. PISSEDSHIT FUCKED UP ASSCRAP OUT OF NOWHERE. I'm like in the class with the cool guys, but like results are Fucked up. Damn lah. I FREaKING pay attention to the Freaking teacher, But like. some asshole goes like "(x-2)(x+2) (r+d) Sub in dunno what fucking shit." in a damn fast voice. If that's not bad enough, My mum's slave driving me to freaking work like shit. If it's time to use the word SuperFuckingCrappalisticEx-Fuckin-aledocious, It'll be now. . . . . . . Fuck. -Billy 18 months ago- I am just the most, retarded piece of crap in the world. There's no turning back the clock now it's just like that. So I'm just going off. I'm not being friends with anyone or anything anymore cause it's so obvious alrealdy, that i cannot, do shit. I cannot, be a better man. I'm, a coward, only concerned for myself, and not to others. I'm, a rude person, saying what he wants and nothing else. I, am a idiot. I don't think that i say. and i just say it. I'm worse than Osama bin laden. He killed people with bombs but i hurt people with words and rend souls and just anyhow do it. at least osama has a reason. I just do it out of pure anger. So well i'm just going to go off. maybe delete my blog. msn. friendster. make sure no one meets me or be my friends cause all i do is make trouble and do shit. I'm like, Billy in James Blunt's songs! Well. no use turning back the clock. just move and suffer. I'm looking like a freaking idiot posting thing. I don't deserve to be even like, posting SHIT. I'm a demon deserved to DIE, and I am not worthy of GOD's GRACE or JESUS'S LOVE. When I jump down, It's going to be with anton cause it's just us who wants to jump down and die, we'll go to heaven and solve the problems alltogether! People will go like "Anton died? oh okay. =)" and like they will ask "Oh..then who is the other guy who jumped down? Is it the guy with no life one? oh cheh, nevermind him lah. Good riddance." And then we'll go to heaven and we'll sit there for eternity and beside jesus and god and the good folks, If not we'll go to hell and die again and again and again with i find soooo pleasing cause i think you guys like me there cause I AM AN ANGSTY NO FUCKING LIFE TEENAGER with no fucking friends and who always wants to die and die and no ONE CARES OR GIVES A SHIT. Fuck all, fuck you, I'm going to jump down, YAY! CONGRATULATIONS PEOPLE WHO WANTED TO HELP ME AND ACTUALLY WANTED ME TO DIE, CAUSE I"M GOING TO! HAHAHA! SPECIAL THANKS TO THE PERSON WHO'S GUILTY IN READING THIS, YOU REALLY CHANGED MY LIFE. I REALLY WANNA GO MEET GOD WHO LOVES ME AND LIKES ME AHAHAHH!!!!!!!!!!! -Billy 12 months ago- I feel like shit okay. I don't know if anyone bothers to read this..but oh well. I'm just so sick and tired of disgusting personalites. I'm so sick and tired of being jealous. I'm so sick and tired of being ignored. I'm so sick and tired of being looked at like a freako. I'm so sick and tired of petty arugments. I'M SO SICK AND TIRED OF HEARING ABOUT LOVE. I'M SO SICK AND TIRED WITH HOMEWORK. I'M SO SICK AND TIRED WITH PEOPLE WHO ARE SO PETTY. I'M SO SICK AND TIRED OF TUTION. I don't know what to do, i'm confused. I don't think anyone but a few people care. -Billy 10 months ago- Okay. 5am in the morning, i just woke up, my eyes are wide open so i'll post. What these past few weeks have been is just pure different. Last saturday i was invited to heart of god church by zhenghui. You know my usual skeptical self, I prepared like WOAH so many questions and didn't even bother listening. Well but the strange thing is that you know the whole atmosphere there is different man. It's not like your normal church-service-sermon-ahh go home Thing, It somehow gives a really warm feeling to people even such as me visiting for the first time. After the whole thing i decided to just screw the questions and just enjoy. It's a funny feeling, it's like at some point i realised that my questions are going to be answered/have been answered. I'm kinda freaked out so to speak, because actually on wednesday, My CG leader spoke to me and prayed for me. She told me stuff that's so freaking fascinating to hear out of a person you've just known for half an hour or so. She told me my aims..my struggle in life. What i've been going through and what i've been looking for. She prayed to god for an encounter to make me see things..and at that point in time she finished up and went to pray for others. I was left with differnt thoughts and different feelings till suddenly i had this overpowering, over dominating thought that just potruded out of my mind. It's like someone just spoke inside my brain okay, i swear, I SWEAR. It went, "Put your faith in your heart and in all you do. Don't give up." After church and a few miniutes of contemplation i realised that this voice was god, and i was just touched by him. It's just so fascinating because after that encounter i left the place a different person, a person with less doubts, fears, and more understanding. A person who is cleansed from all difficulty and hardship. It's like being born again, literally. I can't explain why this happens. But it did. The only thing i have to say is that wow, thank god that i went to heart of god church. It's a new experience and a new life, A new everything. New friends, New understanding, new thoughts and actions. A NEW HEART :D I shall tell you people more later! Right now i have to go walk with my dad. Jesus, you rock man. -Billy just recently- Mood: Thinkish-Spirtual Listening to: Kaoru's Journey I (Gut Guitar) Just thought over some stuff and i really feel looking-forwardish and happy today. Yesterday night Clarence called me and he shared some stuff with me about the seven pillars of the church and what we gotta go..and i cant help but think that i've joined a church which is really incredible. Just thinking of how church progressed over these months i've joined..it's so fast! I remember the first time i came into church..I was hard hearted and rejectful, i was closed and cautious. But yet, the people were kind, loving, understanding, and the leaders who led me always understood my perceptions and helped me go through phase after phase. As the months went past, i saw the church grow bigger..I remember the time when we were 500-600+. I remember my first cell group meeting where it was just Me, Dexter, Clarence, Lynette, Zhenghui, Jieru, Jingfen, Samteo, Cherie, Dawei, and Elieen. Now i look at where we're standing and i'm really proud to see how we've grown..we've got so many new people- Pei Jun, Mu-Ying, Vivien, Wei Hao..and the list goes on. And i'm really happy that this trend is moving on! i see new people who i've never even met coming to church..and i see old members coming back too. Bernice, Alicia and Samantha Yap. It's grown so much from just D5 to something that of incredible spiritual size, strength and nature. I can't help but feel that it's really been accelerating and moving fast! And i always remembered the up and coming leaders..it makes me proud to see people like Ranford and Carlo rising up into the minstry/leaders area. I remember when i first saw ranford- just a new friend back then..Now he's someone great! A person with a strong faith, a man of God with incredible spirit, love, and he's rising up to be a leader. I look back and I look at the church now..we're moving to Paya Lebar, things are going up great and rising like never before. I see new people become leaders and serve in ministry..and all this. It just makes me so, so proud to be in Heart of God Church. The love never died out..the growth never stopped. Everything just shot up and really went up exponentially..and it's growing and growing! Now i really can't wait but look towards the future and take into my anticipating mind the things that we are gonna be doing and what the church is gonna be like. It's a new journey, it's a bigger church, we're moving to a new level of spirituality, and i think i'm going to ride the wave with the rest of the youths and adults in this church, and move on towards the amazing future God has set for us!
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The Bill you knew 22 months ago is dead.
Billy died on 1/11/06.
on 1/11/06, Billy died, and was born again.
What else can i say when i see this change? what else but that something supernatural indeed has happened. I'm honestly, deeply so thankful to Jesus.
Love, Billy
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/ 9/11/2007 03:34:00 PM
Tuesday, September 11, 2007
01. time now: 10:12 PM
-Personal Particulars- 02. name: Billy 03. gender: Male 04. date of birth: 31/05/1991 05. age: 16 06. birthplace: sg 07. height: 175cm 08. weight: 75kg 09. waist: lazy to measure 10. school: acsbr -Choose One- *Are you..: 11. short/tall: tall. 12. skinny/fat: in between 13. ugly/good looking: good looking. 14. long hair/short hair: long? 15. fair/dark: fair 16. clever/stupid: smart 17. rich/poor: rich 18. hungry/full: Somewhere in the middle. 19. happy/sad: BUNNIES -Relationship- 20. are u available?: yeah? 21. do u have a crush: Nope. 22. were u ever dumped?: Nope. 23. how many relationships do u have before?: 1, with the God above 24. one quality he/she must have: Understanding. 25. one quality he/she cannot have: Doesnt think before she says. 26. describe your dreamguy/dreamgirl: Hazelnut coloured Eyes/hair. Long hair, Soothing voice, Strong in character. not easily intimidated, strong in love, compassion. Can relate with me? Loves spending time with me & friends. Great counsellor, understanding. Loves me lots? lol. :D 27. have u ever kissed?: No. 28. are you up for hugs?: Anything. 29. are you a flirt?: Nope. 30. describe ur perfect date: Hang around shopping center, talk with friends, somehow proceed to church and gain another sis in Christ! WAHAHAH! just kidding. i dont know. 31. how long was ur latest relationship?: w/God, 10 months and going strong till eternity. -Random- 32. what are u wearing now?: Music is my life wings tee. 33. when did u last bathe?: Afternoon. 34. what song are u listening right now?: Awaken my soul from city harvest. 35. how much money is in your wallet now?: nada 36. how many piercings do u have?: none. 37. will u wan to drive?: I WANT A REALLY COOL MOTORCYCLE! 38. do u drink?: Wine? little bit. 39. smoke?: NO 40. have u shoplifted before?: nah. thou shalt not steal 41. do u have an enemy?: Lucifer/Satan, Poverty, Bullies, Widow/orphan makers. -School Life- 42. class?: 4A2 43. fav. teacher?: Miss Olivia. HA! 44. who sits on ur left?: Ian Yap (in order of most common person. i have home room system.) 45. who sits on ur right?: Joshua Poh 46. who sits in front of u?: Nathan? 47. who sits behind u?: Mister snuggles. Erm, Russell 48. best subj?: Literature. A1! HA! 49. lousiest subj?: History/SS. C5 ): 50. time now?: 10:22 HA TEN MINS! .hello. Been busy the last few days. so i'm gonna do everything like i did last time- chronologically. - Last Friday - Went for Rodrigues's literature session, it was pretty cool. Did a poem and a prose, rushed off for the Zone worship session at church. Went there, it was really amazing luh. Dominic came down from the army and talked abt treasuring moments and worship. It was really intresting and funny at first, but the message got serious after a while. It was really intresting listening to his and other zone ppl's experiences in church and out. What really touched me is the time he had with his Grandfather. Let me recount the story for you the best i can in his words.. "..And so my grandfather would always pamper me and treat me. He always brought me out shopping and really treated me like a son. Sometimes i'd get jealous when we went out with friends- he treated them well too. Once there was a time where we went to taka, he wanted to buy me a birthday present. I had a choice between a insect-gel making machine, or a car. Of course i wanted the machine, and we decided to take that. However, when i went to the counter i realised that my grandfather had not enough money. Although he wanted to buy the race car instead, i told him it was allright and we left the store. On my birthday however, he gave me the car and the machine. I was really really happy! I always enjoyed moments with my grandfather. One day however, he got sick with a cough. It got worse and worse day by day, and he was soon about to be hospitalized. My grandfather always fetched me to school on a bicycle in the morning, and we would take a long route to school. I remember him waking up early though suffering so sickly, getting on the bicycle to come and fetch me although my grandmother asked him to stay. He said it was something he had to do. As we rode down on the path to school, i held him so tightly at the back of the bicycle. Everything at that moment, the good times, just came to me. I held on to him and truly treasured that moment. Just treasured the time we had together. He passed away from the cough eventually, and i remember this time that God spoke to me he spoke strong. He said "I will give you what your grandfather gave you in life..." So i sat there listening to Dom and i felt really really sad..and i just realised how much we must treasure things in life. Especially God's presence! so yeah, we went for the worship session and BOOM! off we went, and two hours passed just like that. Time passes when you're captivated! Really went up a whole new level i feel, it's like a rocket man. woohoo. It really taught me something amazing- something spiritual, something different. Something Holy. -Saturday- Had a great service about unlawful hunger- we needa be hungry for more of God! after that, a super funneh time with the skit-guys for pastor how's b'day. Went over to vivo and ate with mum and sis. went back home and did some work. -sunday- Uneventful. Read the devotional! quiet time is great : D -monday- Passed by a friend's blog.. Sometimes i wonder where the person has gone. I used to see people really happy, jumping for joy for God, speaking in the spirit, walking the talk and talking the walk! Encouraging others in faith, and relaly moving it out for God. I pass by them again and what do i see? Disgusting, horrible pictures. Slanderous talk, obscene Jokes and foolish stories. What happened? I mean, What happened to the faith-filled, happy, encouraging, strong person? Where's she gone? -monday- uneventful. -tuesday- WOOHOORESULTSYEAH! El- B4 Lit- A1 Ma- B3 Ph- B3 Ch- B4 SSH- C5 aaaaanddd...twentypoints. from 35! WOO! -wed- nothing! well, yeah. talked to kay about nat's really, really retarded moments and her cous's..can't wait to hear more about her cous's blong moments : D -today!- Went for lunch with peck ming and the rest of the guys, came home and had tut with mister Chua. not bad(: haha. went upstairs to do quiet time..i was amazed at a sermon pastor phil preached on prayer..now its truly a higher level! i feel really great praying to God. Did about a 40 min quiet time, it was really amazing luh. Spoke in tongues for a really, really long time..went up a great new level! Well, what's it gonna be for the next few days? Even more time w/God i think! : D I'm gonna try and start a spiritual journal on this blog. just thought of the idea. okay. tireeedddd....... gnight. love, Billy. |
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