I feel very sian for no reason.

wl.

Decided to take stock of my life:


Studies:

Doing great i guess! It's pretty significant an improvement i see in all my subjects. Maths, Sciences and HSS is getting stronger and more confident though i just need to smooth out some edges here and there. I think i really need to improve my English- Specifically my vocabulary. I feel like a distinction should be mine, but it's just out of reach because of the lack of connected expression. Lit? Well, it's doing great with Mrs Rodrigues, Just need to figure out a way to remember quotes well.

Grades-wise, It's been a great improvement so far!


Sec3
El: B4
Physics: C6
Chem: C6
HSS: C6
Lit: B4
Maths: C6


Sec4 midyrs
El: C5
Physics: C6
Chem: D7
HSS: C5
Lit: B4
Maths: C6

Sec4 Prelims:
El:
Physics: B3
Chem: B4 (Missed by one mark B3.)
HSS: C5 (History was a B4, but SS pulled it down.)
Lit:
Maths:




I'm hoping to cut off about 12 points from the midyears..and get a score of 12 for the o's.

O Level Target:
El:A1
Chem: A2
Physics: A2
HSS: B4
Lit: A1
Maths: A2



Family:

Not doing so well. Feel like the relationship's far, getting angry at them more and more every day. Specifically at my mum and her very subtle but strong religious intolerance towards Christianity. I'm Glad to hear my mum's side is getting saved one by one though, it's great to see seeds finally sprouting and growing. My dad's side? It's still a hard fought silent battle, but i'm hoping to see the relationship get better and the seeds of discontent away.



Friends:

Doing okay. Everyone's still everyone, nice, not nice, blah whatever. They're cool.


Church:
Really fun, really cool, but i feel like i need to sort out a few things here and there. Glad to serve FINALLY after so long. I feel like i've been taking and taking and taking but not giving at all. Need to get that thing about being selective in friends out of my head.

YESSSS.

I finally, finally am able to do something for dear Heart of God church.




aside,
----


One thing i'm really sick of? People who totally deface the Christian religion.


We're here to meet human needs, we're here to help people, we're here to make things work for the broken hearted.

What have some of us turned it into? A soliciting, scheming proud insurance scheme.


We're not here to solicit a religion at all.





We're here to pass down love from above.

Not condemn. Not Solicit. Not deface. Not denounce.

Billy,

Don't you get tired of being a Christian?
Don't you get sick of not hearing from God?
Don't you get sick of having to do everything church says?
Don't you get sick of having to study 4 hours a day?
Don't you get sick of having no friends or leaving and coming alone every day?
Don't you get sick of your family?
Don't you get tired of having to evangelise?
Don't you feel weary of fighting a war against family for so long?
Don't you feel guilty that you still fall into temptation and sin?
Don't you feel afraid of screwing up when meeting a new friend?
Don't you just hate the past and what you did?
Don't you just feel hated and unforgived?
Don't you feel discontent with your mental and physical ability?
Don't you think that life is so boring?
Don't you think that your leaders are inadequate?
Don't you think the bible is so limited?
Don't you think that God is just so weird?
Don't you think that living a dream is like living a lie that you can do all things?
Don't you think that living this life is so weary?


Don't you think you're out of place at church?





-




I don't.

Create your own Friend Test here


HAHA

They say no one can change the world, not a crazy 16-year old teenager, not a bunch of youths or a bunch of church loving people.





I say: If God can change lives, countless of my friends and mine included, we can change the world through him if we believe and go the distance.

Hi guys.



Argghhh. ARGGGHHHHHHHHAGHRHHHGHGEUAIGHUEAHT(#)R@*(QHR%TONKLGneoaH$e-9q5r3jqjapojeopjrpojq3r93jq95rtj3-qi502ikposkafl,dl;afg,l;dmgl;damgl;m;daml;lag;la;lmtlleqw!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! GYAHAHAHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I think i screwed up part 2 of english Roar


RULES:
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next
button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN
NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS!


IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY?
Dreaming with a Broken Heart (John Mayer) okay..erm.

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN A GUY/GIRL?
Ocean Avenue (Yellowcard) What.


HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Why Georgia (John Mayer) Random i guess, from the past song results

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
traffic (Tiesto) -.-

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Make Yourself (Incubus) Yeah! That's more like it!

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Holy One of God (CCC) Amen. LOL!

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PARENTS?
Tell the world (Hillsongs) uh.

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Love (Red Rain) yeah! LOVE thy neighbour!

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BESTIE?
History Maker (Hillsongs) Yup. Historymakers!

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU
LIKE?
My Boy (Lisa Ono) Ono! I like a boy! Righttttt....

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Find me at the Cross (CCC) Yup. It speaks for itself. (:

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW
UP?
Neon (John Mayer) Neon? I don't want to be a neon sign.


WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE
PERSON YOU LIKE?
Flute Solo - (Rurouni Kenshin) no comment


WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Cry out to Jesus (Third Day) ...?

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
Sorry's not good enough (Mc Fly) I don't like mcfly and i dont even know why its here.

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Mediterranian Breeze (Novamenco) guitar forever even at my funeral

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Worthy Is the Lamb (Third Day) yay

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST FEAR?
Safe (travis) I like living on the edge








1. whats your name spelt backwards?
yllib

2. What did you do last night?
sleep

3. The last thing you downloaded onto
your computer?
insaniquarium

4. Imagine your first child is a girl,
what do you call her?
Sarah (or Mary)

5. Imagine your first child is a boy,
what do you call him?
Kristos (or Kristopher)

6. What are you wearing?
Dark Blue Shirt and Shorts

7. How many cars have you owned?
0

8. Type of music you like most?
Songs that have a meaning inside and whose meaning can be inferred from the notes and arrangement. Take John Mayer and George Benson.

9. What kind of computer do you use?
Compaq Windows. I-want-mac.

10. Ever made a prank phone call?
no.

11. You like anyone right now?
God

12. Would you go bungee jumping or sky
diving?
Sky Diving

13. Furthest place you ever travelled?
Seoul

14.Do you have a garden?
yes.

15. Do you know all the words to the
national anthem?
Mariki tar ya..yes but i'm lazy to type.

16. Shower, morning or night?
morning and night lah.

17. Favorite pizza toppings?
pastrami.

18. Chips or popcorn?
Chips.

19. What cell phone provider do you
have?
Starhub

20. Have you ever smoked peanut
shells?
I've eaten peanuts but i havent heared of smoking their shells.

21. Have you ever been in a beauty
pageant?
no.

22. Orange Juice or apple?
CARROT!

23. Who were the last people you sat
at lunch with?
Family

24. favorite chocolate bar?
dont like choc.

25. Who is your longest friend and how
Gerald. Since Primary school

26. Have you ever won a trophy?
Straits Times competition

27.Favorite band?
Delirous?

28. Favorite computer game?
9 Dragons

29. Sprite or 7-UP?
no soft drinks please.

30. Have you ever had to wear a
uniform to work?
yeah

31. Would you prefer being a
millionaire or finding true love?
Finding true love, I've alrealdy found one up there.

32. Do you believe in love at first
sight?
I believe in love from the above! )Hey that rhymes!

33.Can exes just be friends?
anything

34. Who was the last person you
visited in the hospital?
Allah

35. Did you have long hair as a young
kid?
no

36. Where would you like to go right
now?
church

37. What was the name of your pet?
Bolly the third or something.

38. What kind of bag do you have, and
what's in it?
Old bag. Notes, Entry proof and I.C.

39. Last incoming/outgoing call on
your phone?
Incoming: Valerie
Outgoing: Joshua

40. What is one thing you are grateful
for today?
That God saved the day!

41. What do you think about most?
church + God?




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Had a conversation with bernice about her experience with God on a confrence that night, loads of intresting stuff i'd love to share, but too tired to post. But still i'm glad that people like her are going out to serve God though she's like 14? Just a ordinary girl but who has an extraordinary heart. I'm Glad to see such people out there, we need more guys and girls willing to give up their youth for God! I just get a feeling. God's smiling a big smile down on these guys and girls..whether they're doing it all out or part time for him..He's smiling!








You may not be the most talented Person, You may not be the most wealthy person, You may not be the most mature person right now, But if you are willing to say, "Yes God! I will take it from your word, Let it be according to your word.", God can use you in a great way. Amen!






God's everywhere, moving in everyone in every way. Watching over us, In us, beside us!



(10:06 PM) bernice.:
yeah man! i cant help but feel God listens in on our msn conversations. LOL.

((:

.hello. People. I love exams.



SS = Shaky
History = Super

Overall still quite okay. Expecting a B4-3. aiyoh, but O level orals..

I think I talked a little softly..reading was very bleahgfubsngnajkrnwajw and the converstation was here and there. Hope nothing went wrong..examiners were a bit fuzzy when i jumped to topic a bit. Well, at least i got a really reassuring smile from the two examiners when I left, plus a have a nice day. I don't know man. Did i screw up? Or did i do well? Mixed feelings.



Having Chem tomorrow, quite confident now i've got redox done and over with.

Well fellow historymakers?

Good morning world.


My tiny brain is feeling so empty but i've got one thing up there now:









" Hello singpost (: "








When we fast, when we pray, cloudless skies break, kings and queens shake. We can do anything with Christ in us indeed!

Happy birthday Sg!

Well now that's out of the way.

I just had a visit to a friend's blog, a girl whom i've not talked to for ages. Just had a train of thought roll by. Well, people change, people come and go, go for the better and for the worse, but the things that we need to do for Christ. Love thy neighbour and sow seeds, i just realised how important we need to do these. We'll never know who'll fall or who'll need help. To be history makers, to make history makers, We'll need all the help we can get.






And i'm gonna get it from the above for her ((:

Just had a sudden inspiration to write a song:


"Lamb of Fire, Lamb of God
We'll live for you,
We'll fight for you,
We'll move for you,
There's nothing in this world we cannot do..

With you!"

Yesterday = Amazing.


It's a beautiful scene, It's like something out of a book. It's so uplifiting and spiritually raising, seeing thousands and thousands of Christians come together, hands raised high, mouths praising the glory of God, declaring that we're making history. Festival of Praise spoke to me in many ways; many many ways, but i'm just gonna tell you about the thing that really smacked me hard.

I realised that in the weave of Delirous? 's songs, we're like in a war. We're fighting for the lives of people who're hungry, weary, thirsty for something, an oasis of love. We're fighting for the poor, the sick, the people singing in their movements of a need for a saviour. It really taught me and told me not to be indifferent anymore. Just a little word makes a difference. I realised that the devil will use his power to convert these people with his deception, his lies, and that God's doing that same too. What makes the difference? I realised that we do, you and I. One moment's indifference can condemn a life, but vigilance can save the lives of tens, hundreds, thousands. Revivals can spread because of that, "Hey, you know what, i'm gonna go over and share the love of God with that person." We're volunteering to be the hands and feet of God on this earth, and i think it's high time that we improve. I admit that i've been slipping once in a while, but i think after that i'm going to try doubly, triply as hard as to be more Christlike and less like me. I'm staying with God, I'm living for him, and i'm sure as anything, going to be his hands and feet to the earth.


There's a wave of historymakers coming, and all we see nowadays, City Harvest, Heart of God, CCC, The rising of the youths and the churches, it's just the beginning. Historymakers are going to come, and come, and come, and it's just going to be a great people, audience, mass gathering of Christians walking for the One Who Gave It All.




"Being a history maker is more about the choices you make, not about the songs you sing, it's about staying married to the person you promised to be with, Its about honouring your friends before yourself, and it's about walking humbly before the king of kings." - Martin of Delirous?

Whoopie Squishee doo.

I've only just begun to scratch the surface of what Delirous really feels like, i'm yet to hear hits like Here i am send me and Inside outside, but i'm alrealdy Enjoying myself.

Oh, and Don moen too. Him and his violin. So cool!


Anyway, time to settle down and see what studies are like! I'm hoping for a okay grade for prelims, I'm gonna move on to poly so i'm sorta using this as a benchmark for the next leap 5/10 points upwards. So here are my Midyear Grades:

el c5
ma c6
phy c6
hm c5
chem d7
Lit B4

:33 points


I'm hoping for a total of:

el A2
Ma B4
Phy B4
Chem B3
Lit A2
Hm B4

:19 points!

A jump of 14 points in total.


And for my o's,

El A1
Ma A1
Phy B3
Ch B3
Lit A1
Hm B3

A total of 12 for L1R5
and a 6 for L1R4

Enough for a nice JC and a great course in poly (:
Along with my portfolio it's gonna be great..









But its gonna take hard work and i'm moving on towards that as fast as i can! : D

Gosh. Fop was great man.

Delirous came on, with really nice stuff like now is the time and our God reigns, Don moen and the classics were good to, pastor phil was exellent, it's so super i can't post anymore!

New pic by the way : D Made from scratch!