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/ 3/24/2007 12:23:00 AM
Saturday, March 24, 2007
This is an official declaration. Read this out, everyone.
I'm not happy with the unneccecary pressure that's going around to bring people to church, Join ministry, or serve in the church. I feel very outcasted by the Youths in the church and i don't feel happy. I feel that i am so much better with the older people who are in the army or who are working. I'm not happy with how things are working out. Why people are encouraging me to bring friends, when i'm stuck with this battle with studies and o'levels. I'm just so shocked that people can skip stuff like cca for church. My team and i are not perfect..we don't have 100% commitment or productivity but i feel that the sense of responsibility and commitment is there. It's just that, i was wondering. If i left my cca alone for church, if i left my cca position for church..what would happen? What would be the concequences? I found out that i was the only one who could do design..and my team was not able to catch the core concepts. If i left..they would collapse. And there will be no more design team. I don't want to see my o level certificate and testimony with the words, "iresponisble", "uncommitted" and "cannot prioritize". I feel that. I cannot skip my cca and i have made that descision to stand firm and not let any thing get in my way..including church. The main thing now that's making me see red, is how people are pressurising me to go and skip cca and skip tution and leave people who are depending on me alone, just to spend time at church. I am facing o levels and i don't belive that i can evangelise now. I don't want to make it worse you..and with all this pressure to forget about things and trust in God. I'm asking. How? There are some things i cannot agree with you.. And i cannot just say. It's not that there's no awareness of the people or the brother beside me who is crying it's just that i cannot help him. I have enough on my hands now. I have to finish my race before i help the others. What use is that you sacrifice your parent's dreams, your teacher's efforts and others to save one person? I think that for me, now is not the time to do so. What i can do, i have done. What i cannot do, I have not done. The past is the past, the present the present. The future is what it will be. I feel that this should just be stopped in my life now in this year only. I feel that the more i seek the truth, the more confused i become. I appreciate your help, you have a point. But there are some things that i do not accept. I cannot accept. There are some things that will stand firm and i have decided to stand on. I cannot allow other things to pass in my way.It may seem rigid, but i will say this. I will not, allow anything to get into my way or affect my cca, or my responibilities. People are depending on me. I will not allow anyone to stop me or stand in my way, or defer me. I stand strong, and if you attempt to influence me again, i will push you back, and throw you away. I will not be afraid to forsake relationships. I have stood where i have stood, AND NOTHING, IS GOING TO MAKE ME CHANGE! THIS IS MY DECLARATION TODAY! YOU READ AND LISTEN! I have responsibilities in my hands. I am removing all barriers of trust. This is the truth, and the truth alone. "The war drums have sounded, Death is coming, and many will not survive." - Ng Eng Chin, Principal Of ACS Barker Road, on the subject of o levels. |
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