Mood: Calm
Listening to: Worthy is the lamb by hillsongs.


Yesterday and today was very spiritual. I really really really had a good time in school, it was religious emphasis week so we had extended chapel. The speaker, Mr Hanson, came up and shared about Jesus and the good news, and what we are as christians. The power of identity. It was really powerful, I could feel the presence of God. Although in the end not many people stayed back for prayers, i could sense that a few were saved. I could just feel it in my heart that a few just. Came to Jesus and Jesus came to them. At the end of the service, i felt really awesome. I fasted abt 7 hours today, it's all i can do beause of parents. Skipped recess. Went to pray..I just compiled a list to pray for things and people. Today i also went around asking the members of my class if they need anything to pray for, because i just want to include them in my time with God during that 50 mins of recess. When i prayed, I could really feel the presence of God and him talking to me, saying that he will change me, continue to make me a different man and just, use me to encourage christians to fight on and move on, grow in him and encourage the unsaved to seek out and find the one missing person in life- Jesus. It was just amazing and incredible, i don't know how to explain it. After school, I did acsday and i shared with Ms Olivia Li how i came to christ. I could feel that she was really happy for me.

I think God's really moving in my life and the people around me, and i feel really glad. Although on last friday i was really upset about some things in church, i have made that descision to try my best and do what i can to help around in church, and at the same time do my best in my studies (:

Well, thats my stand, gonna try my best to be a testimony to christ.

Mood: Calm
Listening to: hallelujah by hillsongs

I believe that now, the time has come to stand for our beliefs and wisdom and strength. To resist temptation. To fight the devil and keep going. There are many forces out there, but i'm prepared to fight it all for studies, christ, other things, cca, and keep going the extra mile. I think that God wants me to move on and keep going, and i think he's going to be there for me and really be with me all this time.


I want to get a message across to all you reading this: When God gives you a calling, will you answer? Will you go that extra mile? Will you keep going for him and keep rising up and going the extra mile for him and all his glory? Will you sacrifice your time for him?


I will. Will you?

Mood: Inspired.
Listening to: Did you feel the mountians tremble by Delirous.




Read this: This is a second declaration, but by no means inferior to the previous.

Today, and forever more this is my stand: For God, Honour, Family, and Others. Nothing will make me change; nothing will make me a different person. I will stand firm in whatever circumstance, trust in God in bad times, speak out against evil, help the oppressed, pray for the oppressors to change, and keep on living it for Jesus.

My life is fixed here; it may change in the time to come, but my root values are going to stay here now and forever more. I'm living for Jesus.

No one will change me anymore, My stand is for Christ.




Right! Now that's out of the way..

Yesterday, service was great! Pastor How talked about us being God's 300, What it takes, and why we should be part of the three hundred. I believe that behind it all, it's a call to fight for christ. I can feel it. God told me that it's my sermon, and i should listen to it. It's everywhere..the people..the song, the whole congregration. I can even feel that fighting spirit in the songs.

Well, I'm going to make a stand and continue fighting against the Devil and Temptation. This reminds me, A couple of weeks ago, I heared from Joshua that people in school have become aware of my christian efforts..and they have a nice nickname for me : Prayer Warrior. How cool is that! LOL.

Anyway. Its just so awesome to see that others are looking towards Jesus and awknoledging his presence although they are not saved yet. I still hope for the best for them! This week and easter is going to be powerful. I can feel it in my heart.

(Just a correction in the previous post. I don't feel ostracized by the youths. I refuse to talk to some.)


Well! A new week. Life's gonna be tough, 5 weeks to midyears. Gonna keep running the race and holding that fire for Christ.

Mood: Happy
Listening to: Our savior by CCC

Went to school. It was quite okay...a bit boring. Fasted abt 4 hours. Must do better ): Talked to the prayer group on prayer..tomorrow gonna talk to them on fasting.


Nothing much..gonna end off here. Post next time guys, not in the mood! Sorry!

Mood: Solemn
Listening to: Phantom of the opera theme


I'm feeling kinda happy, yet sad, yet serious. Very mixed. Why?

1. Pastors Burden with the church..as family, i feel their weight!
2. One of my best tution teachers is leaving for the USA.
3. School's starting tomorrow.
4. Feel so connected with God right now.
5. Fasting the whole week- half day fast.

Today was nothing much..had tution..went home. Talked to Bernice for a while about cheerleading stuff. If it's something i really wanna say about her, i'd talk about her courage and strength, She dared to do the things some girls wouldn't! haha. Anyway, I also talked to clarence about pastor's burden..and posted on the CG blog as well. It's below:

Hey guys.

You know, i just wanna talk about pastor's burden. You know, sometimes we all face troubles in life and all, and i think maybe this is a obstacle for the church and for the pastors. Through time and time again, pastors have been there for us, preaching, making us better children of God and so on and so forth. I think they really, really love us and have been really patient with us as well. They have sacrificed alot of stuff for us- to see the church grow and everything. They have helped us in many ways too. However..I think maybe this is one thing that pastors need help with.

Although i know the youths have given back alot of stuff in return to their really generous efforts, i think that this issue needs just a little more. Can we try as a Connect Group to put in a little more for them? Maybe try to volunteer your services or put in money for the building fund? If you really can't do anything practical- It's okay. Try to do something spiritual, it works equally as well in both ways! Maybe take a little time more, about fifteen to twenty minutes in your Quiet Time to pray for Pastors How and Lia's Burden? I think pastors have really helped us..and maybe it's time that we help them in turn in any way possible. Let's try to pray and fast for them too okay?

Yup. I think that it's important to fast for the things we need to..I'm going to this week. A small sacrifice for church at least..God's been telling me, that it's my calling, my will to be a child of God. A man with the strength to go through the impossible. I think it's time for me to use my talents and my advantages, sacrifice a bit, and give it to the church. It's not much i can contribute..but i think that that's what i can do at least.

Gonna play warcraft right now, see you guys!

Mood: Angry-Unhappy
Listening to: How to save a life

Just attended Super-Teens camp today, i'm not happy at all. What kind of a camp tells you to remember things by using methods involving blasphemous stuff? What kind of camp, tells you to love your father and mother because they suffered and suffered to give birth to you? What kind of a camp makes fun of people's late fathers and deliver mental torture of the extreme kind in the form of triggering guilty feelings on cursing your mother and father?! People cried. It's not like ACS Barker guys to cry.

I'm so sick of this. Especially when the trainer used the name of Christ in ultimate blasphemy and vain. "How many of you hate your fathers? How many of you hate your mothers? Okay, lets start this session with prayer. All of you, no matter what religion pray MY way. Father lord in heaven, i pray that those people who have raised their hands to show that they hate their mothers and fathers, Please let their Mothers and fathers die."

I'm so disgusted.


I don't care. I'm fustrated and angry.


F*ck him.



Whatever.

Mood: Calm-happy
Listening to: How to save a life by The Fray

Had my o-level practicals today, It was quite allright. It's strange- I just took my first major exam and i felt in that one hour of seeming peril, God was there and he was just beside me and inside me. I really felt like singing praises and worshipping him during that time. Although i didn't let loose my emotions, i felt guided and comforted, very calm and relaxed and..smooth in a way. After that whole practical, i exited the lab really happy for some reason.

Nowadays, i really feel in touch with God, like he's right beside me all the time. Ever since those amazing testimonies by my friends at church, i've been like, connected on a 24-hour line to Jesus! It's really quite enlightening and very enjoyable somehow, i just feel so much lighter, so much positive and happy!

Just amazing. Can't wait for tomorrow's practical, it's going to be great. (:

Mood: okay
Listening to: fan spinning


Allright. Yesterday and today was a bit rocky and there were mixed emotions everywhere, I was very angry, but very happy. But well! Forget about the angry part because God seemed to solve everything today! Haha. During service, God told me that there's going to be " No more anger, No more unhappiness, No more discontent, No more weariness, No more really crazy feelings and no more tiredness. ", and lo and behold, it was true. What's even better?

Zhenghui, Valerie and Carlo went up to give their testimonies, and they were really, really really awesome. If there are people who really worked in God and really made things happen, it's them. I was suprised to hear that they achieved such a feat to give out bookmarks and cards, and i was really happy to see that they had incredible support spiritually and in the physical world. I was also very, very impressed by Valerie's testimony and Carlo's one too. How do you find such bravery and courage to share in front of your school? How do you find the strength to do the impossible in impossible time limits? To find bravery and courage in such unexpected people? I seriously think, that these three people have christ in their lives, and indeed the Lord God Jesus Christ is working like mad through them. amen.

They gave one hell of a testimony, and i was really inspired after that. Of all the horrible things i went through this week and all the doubts and fears, this was the first good thing i ever experienced! (: this three-in-one testimony really brought me back to a whole new level, I feel really connected in christ to everyone, i don't feel so secular anymore. Its just amazing. Incredible. Yeah. Just amazing! After that, left church early, went to grandfather's house for his b'day. Anyway..feeling so happy and just incredible. I talked to some of my relatives, in the end we started talking about Jesus Christ! I found out that while i was away..there were miracles happening in the family. People were getting saved, wounds healed and stuff, and crazy crazy things (but good) happening! People were really growing in christ. At one point, even spirits were driven out. LOL. Invited my cousin's family to church to just let them see how hoGc is like. After that whole birthday..the relationship i could feel, went up to a whole new level. This is really gonna be great.

Well, that's it about yesterday. There were bad things too, but it seemed that God kept his promise..and brought them away. he really did :D I'll stop posting now, shall go chat.

Ps: To Carlo, Zhenghui, or Valerie: If you're reading this, I just wanna say that you guys are true blue christians. You really are a wonderful testimony to christ, i'm honoured to have you three as brother and sisters in the Lord God Almighty. :D



AMEN!

Mood: Happy-Tired-Moody.
Listening to: HistoryMaker


Had service yesterday, It was freaking funny. Pastor winkie decided to drop by and deliver a fantastic youthed up sermon yesterday, plus a nice nice spoof of 8 mile. :D

Anyway, I was super tired yesterday, but God was still there. He told me many things- That he's still going to work through me, and through times of trouble and others, He's going to be there and continue making a true blue christian out of my, and use me to make true blue christians out of others! He also told me that he's going to make new things happen in the prayer group, In my friends and family, and in my life. As Pastor How said, "The future is amazing." I can't help but say, "Surely it is."

After service i had a moody time though. Thinking over my life and myself, and looking at the different people i meet. I can't help but say, sometimes i think others need to grow up. Sometimes i don't understand how people prioritize things like parents, school, and cca responsibilities before church activities. I know it's to serve God and all..but for what cost? Speaking from a point of a Head-Of-Section in my cca. If i'm gone this year, who's going to train these sec 1's and 2's? Who's going to help produce ACSDAY? Who's going to run the club, and/or do booklets for everything? Sometimes i hear people saying, "I failed my tests and skipped cca, Got 'tekaned' for it, but i don't care and i'm going to do it again because church 'rawks' so much." I'm thinking: Is this the right attitude? These people i talk to are in their o level year. I'm sick concerned for them.

My principal, Mr Ng, woke me up in January. Isin't that late enough? I wonder if these people will ever rouse from their holiday mood, I feel very concerned and i just want to to do something and let them realise how little time they have.



I'm going to leave it off here and play Warcraft Three now, don't feel like posting anymore.


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