Now, i feel as if i should have just turned back the clock over a million things, because i did things that i didn't want to do, took care of people to the irritation point, made myself go on bad terms with someone i have come to be friends with, and made myself dead with over rated fake grief, over the death in my family. This sounds like an excuse right? I know half the people out there are thinking it is. I wish i myself were dead. I read the stuff on the school system. Well, it's one more year till i flung everything and get thrown to It's The End (ITE).

Being such a bastard myself, i think i should really have just gutted myself open for not controlling my feelings on a particular person, V's Blog, and just enlightened her for the world to see and for her and seniors to admit that i am a qualified, with masters, graduated fucking idiot from the school of technical stupidity. I just want to get a degree in mass communication and live life, fuckhead. Wait, aern't i supposed to be the one getting depressed and less angry?


WELL. One more thing. Why is it my fault? So maybe i tried too hard. I just am concerned, just want to care, looks like it's really on me. So call me captain backfire! -seethes with anger.- Oh, "I'm never speaking up again, It only hurts me." My stupid mouth, has really, really got me into "Trouble" now.