I'm so sian.
Well i don't know why.
Well maybe i do.
Well somehow i just think I'm a extra person
sorta like an unimportant cameo in a movie
the bad guy with no name who gets killed in one second in a movie and no one cares.
I have no idea why i feel that though
it's as if i've done nothing to help people
made no difference in their lives
or in mine.
I just feel like I'm waiting for something to happen
when i should be out there
helping people
making them feel better
helping them clean up the mess
saving lives
perhaps saving souls
But I just am a simple person
an extra at school, in life.
I've done nothing to help people at all
and in the end I'm just a pushover idiot
standing in the middle of the field
where everyone's left and lightning's about to strike
And I've got nothing to do.
In fact
I don't think I've got anything useful to give or help
or i don't have skills to myself
that's why i don't make a difference in people's lives.
and when i try to help
in the end i get laughed at or scorned
and In the end I'm like a clown.
I don't think i should help people anymore
but that makes me sad cause i can't stand peolpe suffering.
Whenever i try my best
and in the end i lose my temper trying
sometimes people hate me.
that's why i guess i am so sian now.
I try to help but in the end I'm a weight.
and I've done absolutely nothing for them.
I'm useless.


I don't know why. I just find comfort in this song. I'm just going insane that's why. i think.