I am so sian. I seriously have decided i shouldn't really socialize or make friends anymore cause all i do is make things worse. I mean. look guys. what on earth have i done? nothing right? i shouldn't deserve your friendship anyway.

11 am. recess. ate with friends. Pierre. Melvin. Yu Ming. Ben Poh. Daryl. Hansel. Couldn't be bothered about time, so i went class late. just walked all the way up.

1200. Amaths. didn't pay any shit attention cause i felt damn sian. Just wasted time insulting gareth and Talking with mel.

1235. P.E. Pe was sian. boring. Anton suddenly became depressed. I'm just worried for him as a friend. Heared that someone smsed smth vulgar to his gf. I'm going to talk to him tomorrow. Make sure he's allright.

120 English. Had vocab test.

200. Went home. sian. didn't really want to go tution. Dumped myself on the bed. had a shower. Put on my jeans and japan shirt

.500 Tution finish. on the car home i became sian again.

530. reach home blogging. Sian.I'm going to run off one day and just go somewhere where no one can find me. and just think. I don't feel like being friends. all i do is cause problems. i guess. Well at least i got my bible and buddhist books to give me comfort. I'm probrably going to take them along the day i run away. I'm just demented. Screw me. ='( I'm just going to be another depressed sod like anton.