Mood: So~So
Listening to: Kokoro, By Kitaro.
Year 2006..
Sup everyone. Now that it's 2006, lotsa stuff going on..a multitude of changes happening in my life, some pleasing, some difficult and hard to accept, But overall, it's for the better. I won't be online much, probrably only saturday and sunday, and I'll try to blog at least 5 times a week. It's a sacrifice I decided to make to make time for studying.
So, as for my studies, I've begun to learn sec 3 English, Litrature, Elementary Mathemetics and Additional Mathematics. So far, English and Litrature's good. I have to learn a wider range of vocabulary and words..but everything's a ball. For elementary mathematics, I'm allright. It's kinda tough at times, but I try my best to put in all I can to overcome the difficulty. Additional Mathematics, however hard you think it is, Is very Simple for me. I hardly have to think or put in effort, I completed the first chapter without a hitch.
For Lesiure..I have decided to stop playing games so much. I just realised..that no matter how much I play, It's all worthless, and a waste of time. So, I will minimalise game playing to make time for studies. For Chatting and blogging, I will still continue, but It will be done not that often. For going out, I decided to make it a point to go out at least 4 times a month, since i used to be so cooped up and stressed at home. I will still continue with the rest, tai chi, sports, music..exept that I listen to random music..but it's mostly instrumental, jazz and techno.
For Friends..I will not be able to spend more time till sec 4. I will be open to calls and smses ( Just so you know, It's 90024237. ) I will also be able to e-mail on weekdays. I will be going out however, once per week as i said before. you're free to request anything, or to go anywhere. Speaking of friends, I've kept track, and I've realised how much the've changed my life. I'll write on that a bit later.
For Art & Web design..I was rejected the application for getting into the art stream, but I will still pursue my passion and desire for creating artworks of many kinds. My art site is www.xadriel2.deviantart.com btw. Web design, I will continue to do this extensively. I will be opening up a tagboard for requests. Now, on to the rest of the post.
Friends.
Well, I'm updating my Good friends list in the sidebar soon. Here's the full list.
Friends: Fitzgerald Gan, Kelvin Ng, Lim Teck Chai, Nicholas Yon, Aaron Thean, Nishit Dillip Shah, Ben Leong, Marcus Chee, Gearald Ong, Luke Yan, Regina, anqi, Clare Seah, Publications ACS.
Good Friends: Ezra Lee, Shaun Lim, Sara Yang, Tan Minyi, Jonothan Lee, Hui Yuan, Jiaying.
Great Friends: Ronald Lee, Jingting, Clarissa, Lisa, Mark.
Godbro's / Sis's. : Joanne Lim, Lizhu Neo.
The Jaded and Special Few: Siyin, Ho Song Yang, Diondra, ZhiWei, Ruth, Yingbin, Fionella, Xinan, Amanda, Amresh,
If I missed you out, made a mistake in your name or want to be in the friend's list, tag me, or contact me.
My thoughts now.
Suprisingly, now I am thinking of Vanessa Choo. I have made a character analysis, and I think that she suffers alot inside. She never gets over things and I think that these experiences get cooped up inside of her. Also, She possibly has the problem of chronic depression, same as me. My case was solved when I was in primary 5, but she has had this problem since start, and she has no one to talk to. Doesnt talk to mother, only opens to good friends / Bf. she's single now, and not much other friends. She confuses compassion with love, which is deadly. She probrably thinks that she is not normal to experience problems, and she tries to be normal by making as many friends as possible, forcing herself to want what all people want unconciously ; Popularity, money, enemies, friends, aspects of a normal person. She also has a very one sided view of things, and little general knowledge, therefore the misguided Perspectives on many things, especially love. Also, she doesnt have much value for respect, which makes people hate her. In all, I pity her, because she is suffering inside unconciously, and is trying to cover up by making friends, etc. She may feel good, but she isin't, and she is suffering inside, and she has no one to talk to. We all may hate her, but Thinking of the other side is a really sad truth. How she can't open up to people, how she paraiahs people..consider a mistake to be betrayal. Some of you may think I'm a hypocrite, But you really must see the story in full view, and not be one sided like her. The problem is, We can't help her, she doesnt want to be helped, she denies these problems. She needs to learn these few things, PATIENCE, UNDERSTANDING, LOYALTY, TOLERANCE, and RESPECT. I'm not saying that I'm perfect and I think that she is horrible because she is inperfect, No one is perfect. I myself have flaws, But I'm just pointing out what I think now.
Three Special Tributes/ Testimonials.
This may be strange, But i want to write for 3 Jaded people.
Siyin- I think, Siyin is very matured in thinking and action. She Understands people's problems, Knows what to do or not to do. - Well,
Siyin, It's been great knowing you..and I really hope to stay in touch with you and friends, even though you're going overseas. We'll miss you alot..really. Anyways..thanks for being in my life..It's really great knowing you.
Fionella- I think, that Fionella is a really good girl. Knows alot, Understands problems, Has and uses alot of logic in thinking. She is good hearted, and can also try to listen and actively solve problems. - Fionella. Hahasies. Really nice knowing you this year, I hope we can stay in touch and go out with bin bin more often. And my head isin't hollow, It's full of intelligent goodness. hahas. Thanks for being in my life, I will always be your father, wherever you are. ( waitaminiute, I sound like darth vader! -shudders- )
Yingbin- Well, Yingbin over here, Is extremly intelligent. Really. She's really talented beyond understanding, and from what I hear, she like me has an extremly good command of english. She is very, very, very compassionate. Listens and actively participates in issues and tries to solve problems. - Well Ms Han. All I Have to say, is that you rock my world. Stay in contact more often okays? And try to go out January lah. Havent watched Narnia yet leh. T.T. Anyways, I wanna give a really great thanks and 1 big big hi-5, cause you've been a great granddaughter! haha!.
What I have been doing!
Well, For the past couple of weeks I've been working hard on maths and english, studying lots, but also spending time on the computer working for cca and stuff..chatting, and tagging. Anyways, the past couple of days I have been spring cleaning the house and stuff, cleaning out my closet and room, packing my scoolbag, making stuff like handphone charm( I finally made one for myself), Wallet securer, And artworks for myself. I realised, when I discovered my last year , primary one and this year photo, that everyone I once knew or know now is going into my class, 3b2. There's Darryl, Kieth, and gerald from Primary, and almost 12 people from my class have moved here with me, so I expect that Next year, will be a ball! okays, back to the present. I also found my old badminton racket, still in great shape, and my old 6kg weights. wahas.
Anyways, I have to go now..My parents will kill me if they found i was posting instead of working. I'll post next time. Ciaos.